Tuesday, September 27, 2011

What a DAY!

So, first off, anonymous posted the following on my comments page, "Glad to see another post, but what's up?"
Not sure if you can see that but it says, Glad to see another post, but what's up?  Well let's see, if you aren't brave enough to at least leave your name, why should I answer your question?  Maybe you're someone I know, maybe you're not, but maybe you're someone who isn't supposed to be reading my blog in the first place.  If you want me to answer your questions at the very least, come on, leave a name or something that tells me who you are.  But in the good spirit of being a cool chick like I am, what's up, the answer is everything.
Today I took my NCLEX examination, the big exam that tells the state if I'm competent enough to be an RN.  In addition to that, I got my job offer to work in labor and delivery at the hospital I was precepting at this summer.  That is a BIG day people.  Huge enormous big day for me.  I am so excited I can't even begin to tell everyone how happy I am.  Everything hinges on me finding out whether or not I passed this test.  Hopefully if you're reading this you will keep your fingers crossed that I did.
Will post more after I know more, but for now, I'm an L&D nurse!  :)
"All That You Are"~Goo Goo Dolls
And I feel,
All the faint morning light,
Filled with hope 'cause you're here in my life,
And we've gone,
From the edge of our souls,
Made it back to a place we call home.

You, see me through,
I was alone in the dark and the fear was my truth.

Yeah, all the things that you are,
Beautifully broken, alive in my heart,
And know that you are everything,
Let your heart sing and tonight, we light up the stars,
All that you are.

I feel wrong,
I'm so human and flawed,
I break down even though I'm still strong,
And time, will make fools of us all,
Builds us up, and then laughs when we fall.

You, pull me through,
When I'm alone in the dark and the fear was my truth.

Yeah, all the things that you are,
Beautifully broken, alive in my heart,
And know that you are everything,
Let your heart sing and tonight, we light up the stars,
All that you are.

You're the sound of redemption,
The faith that I've lost,
The answers I'm seeking no matter the cost,
You opened the window,
Now I can see,
And you taught me forgiveness by giving your love back to me.

Yeah, all the things that you are,
Beautifully broken, alive in my heart,
And know that you are everything,
Let your heart sing and tonight, we light up the stars,
All that you are.

Yeah, all the things that you are,
Beautifully broken, alive in my heart,
And know that you are everything,
Let your heart sing and tonight,
Let your heart sing and tonight, we light up the stars,
All that you are.

Oh I feel,
All the faint morning light,
Filled with hope 'cause you're here in my life.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Already?

I know, I'm posting again already.  Be forewarned fair readers, this may be an emotional post.  Or not, I'm not quite sure.  I have a lot I want to say, but for some reason none of it's coming out the way it normally does.  Usually I can put my fingers to the keyboard and just start typing away.  But what I want to say and what I should say and how I say what I say....well some of those things just don't add up the way they should.  Maybe it's the stress from school, maybe it's the few beers I've had this evening...who knows?  LOL.
Nothing to add really too much to what's going on for right now.  Except here is a song for right now.
"The Letting Go"~Melissa Etheridge

I came here to let you know
The letting go
Has taken place
I have held the winter's son
Become one
Set my pace
Isn't that what we wanted all along
Freedom like a stone
Maybe we were wrong
But I can say goodbye
Now that the passion's died
Still it comes so slow
The letting go
Piece by piece I take apart
This complicated heart
And I hope to find
Something I can prove is real
I can feel is truth
I can say is mine
That's all I even wanted to be
The closer I got
The further I could see
But when lovers change
And the night feels strange
We choose our road
The letting go
I came here to let you know
The letting go
Has taken place

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Not Quite a Month Yet

So I'm getting another post in in just under a month this time.  Woohoo!  I enjoyed my break off from school and have even continued it forward a bit into the semester.  I went camping twice, once with mom and once with Michelle, at Grayland and Ft. Flagler respectively.  I had a good time both times and it was nice to be out in nature.  At Michelle's camp we had the most awesome people friendly squirrels who were entertaining to watch and kept getting into stuff at everyone's campsite.  They really terrorized a young couple behind us, which was better than watching reality TV (or we're just that bored while camping that it was).  Played a round of golf, which wasn't my strong suit, but hard to tell if one is improving really when you don't go all that frequently (twice this year, YEAH!).
Also just returned from a weekend in Eastern WA watching my good friend John get married.  Wedding was beautiful, weather turned out great, reception was a rocking good party, and I ended the night early drunk and put to bed in the yurt (where we later had an after party that I'd like to tell you more about, but hello, read my previous sentence).  All I know is that fairly early in the morning, around 530 or so, woke up to four people in the king size bed and two of them went back to their own yurt.  Good times obviously when we all have to pass out in one bed.
I take my NCLEX a week from today.  I'm both nervous and excited about it.  I'm of course nervous because it will be difficult and long and challenging and everything else everyone says about it.  I'm also excited to just have it over and done with (assuming of course that I pass and am officially an RN at that point).  Still waiting to hear back on my job interview that I had for the RN residency in labor and delivery, but there was an update to that at least (they said it would be a long process).  They emailed me last week asking for my references and all four references have completed their portion of the job.  Hoping this is of course good news and means I'm moving forward in the process.
So, not a super long blog, but long enough by any means.  Off to study, then work tonight, then spending the night at bff's house so I can watch the kiddos tomorrow (since their teachers are still on strike).  STUDY STUDY STUDY TIME!!
Today's song, as sung at the wedding (with some wrong lyrics)
"One and Only"~Adele
You've been on my mind
I grow fonder every day,
Lose myself in time
Just thinking of your face
God only knows
Why it's taking me so long
To let my doubts go
You're the only one that I want

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before
Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all,
You never know if you never try
To forgive your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts

I've been on your mind
You hang on every word I say, lose yourself in time
At the mention of my name,
Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close?
And have you tell me whichever road I choose you'll go

I don't know why I'm scared 'cause I've been here before
Every feeling every word, I've imagined it all,
You never know if you never tried
To forgive your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts

I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart
I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart

(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've learnt it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart
(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've learnt it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart

I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart

So I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts
Come on and give me a chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts.