Wednesday, June 01, 2011

Complicated

"Why is everything with you so complicated?" title of this blog post and of course the first line of my post courtesy of Rihanna.  That's what is on my mind tonight.  I know it's something of a vague title and I'm sure some of you would like me to explain it in detail while others of you are pretty much reading this thinking...why the fuck do you even bother?  Yeah, I don't know either.  Sometimes I just feel like writing and for the hell of it, I write it to this blog and put it out there for everyone to see/read.  But dear reader, lest you think you know me from my posts, what I really want said and what I keep deep down and personal....it's not written this way.  Yes I write what I want to when it's dark, deep, or serious....it just goes to someone else and is shared in a much smaller circle.  I know, that seems weird for someone who is so open about things, but sometimes only certain people can understand, so I share that with them.
Been in a little bit of a bad mood this evening.  All my plans for tomorrow, Thursday, were canceled (for pretty good reasons, but still a bummer) so now I'm at home with the TV, my dog friend Hurley (who I'm dog sitting), the fireplace on and a six pack of Blue Moon's summer seasonal ale.  Not a horrible way to spend a Wednesday night, but it's mostly out of annoyance/defeatedness which really sucks.  (Yes, I am aware defeatedness isn't a word but you'll just have to roll with it).  On top of all of this, I am apparently one of two (out of 17) of my classmates that hasn't yet got their preceptor-ship.  So, I'm supposed to start this next week and still have no idea what department, hours, or facility I will be working in...just know that I will be at a multicare facility.  ARGH!
Ok, so unrelated to any of these topics, and totally off subject and likely too much information I recently got some new bras.  These bras make my boobs look awesome and I love them.  Thanks for allowing the interjection of my boob information.
I went running with my best friend today.  She did four miles and I got about 2.25 in, but it was awesome to be out there in the sun with her.  We got our runs in right before the rain came back and killed the awesome weather.  She is running her FULL MARATHON this weekend and I know she will do awesome.  Twinnie and I will be there to support her with our home made posters like usual.  Can't wait!!

Ok, not much else to update with, so song for tonight...

One and Only ~ Adele
"One And Only"

You've been on my mind
I grow fonder every day,
lose myself in time just thinking of your face
God only knows why it's taking me so long
to let my doubts go
You're the only one that I want

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before
Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all,
You never know if you never try to forget your past
And simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I'm worth it to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance

To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile
Until the end starts

Have I been on your mind?
You hang on every word I say, lose yourself in time
At the mention of my name, will I ever know
How it feels to hold you close
And have you tell me which ever road I chose you'll go

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before
Every feeling every word, I've imagined it all,
You never know if you never tried to forgive your past
And simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance

To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile
Until the end starts

I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart
I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart

(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've earned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart
(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've earned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart

I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worth it to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance

To prove I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts
Come and give me the chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts. 

1 comment:

Tiffany said...

Thanks for running with me today, it was fun! Love you!