Sunday, June 26, 2011

Once again my friends and countrymen

"Lend me your ears and eyes, the showstopper is stupid fresh, when will you be satisfied?" Yeah that's right, I just started off my blog with salt n pepa lyrics.  I'm super dope def like that.  Once again it's time for late night blogging with Jaime.  I know I know, it's not all that late, but close enough.  I'm enjoying a few drinks tonight and if I wait until later....well who the hell knows what kind of blog you'll get.  Wait, I'm sober right now, and I can't really guarantee what kind of blog you'll get anyway.  Let's just face it people, if you have some sort of high brow expectation of a blog post.........you should totally head somewhere else.
Feeling a little inspired this evening, watching Legally Blonde, so how could I not?!?!  I saw two deliveries today in L&D, both were c-sections.  Sort of a bummer that they weren't vaginal deliveries, but for both of these ladies it had been long hard time of laboring so I'm sure they were excited to be done already.  One was a young girl, which I normally would have felt a lot of horror and pity for, however this was the most mature girl of her age that I've met in awhile and she had an excellent support system around her.  Her baby was very cute even though it was born asynclitic.  For those not in the know, this means that baby's head was slightly sideways and was not inline with the birth canal (which would explain why she had to have a c-section).
So after those two uninspired paragraphs I suddenly developed writers block.  Bummer.  Ok, so that's all for now folks!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Life & Death

No, what I have to say isn't a matter of (life & death that is), but that is what I'm going to talk about.  I started my preceptor-ship last week and it's going very well.  So far I've been in on about 4 births and have even coached a woman all the way through her labor to delivery.  It was freaking awesome, I loved it!  This family was waiting to find out the sex of their baby and they found out together.  It was a beautiful thing when their baby girl came out and the doctor announced it to both of them and they started crying together.  What has been interesting to see so far is that every lady's pregnancy is unique and special to them in different ways, just as their deliveries are too.  But with the good also comes the....not as good.
On Sunday I was able to take care of a woman who had to deliver her baby early and it was stillborn.  I can't begin to describe to you the range of emotions that went through me as the student nurse working with this family.  On the one hand it was hard not to cry and just break down for them in their loss.  On the other hand I had to be strong and support them in whatever manner they needed, yet also did not want to seem like I was uncaring for their situation.  I hope that the things I was able to do to help this family did in fact help them and that I was able to strike the right balance between professional and feeling.  My heart went out to them so much it was all I could do not to take the mom in my arms and just hold her and rock her (it didn't help that she was a petite little doll of a thing that I could probably pick up even if she had been 9 months pregnant).
Even despite the not as fun times I wouldn't trade this experience for anything in the world.  Being able to witness miracles of life every day reminds me how precious life is and how brief and short it can all begin or end.  It makes me treasure the free time I have outside of school and look forward to the times I get to be at the hospital.  I hope I am making a difference in the lives of these families who so often are touching my own life!
No song for today, just leave you with  my good wishes and lots of love!

Tuesday, June 07, 2011

Word of the day~Preceptorship

pre·cept

–noun
1.  a commandment or direction given as a rule of action or conduct.  2. an injunction as to moral conduct; maxim.  3. a procedural directive or rule, as for the performance of some technical operation.

I have had a lot of questions about my preceptorship for the summer.  I can come to the conclusion that this word does not in fact exist since every time I type it in either a document or facebook it inevitably is underlined in red like I've spelled it wrong.  The definition of precept is what I've listed above.  I'll add to that for my definition of preceptor-ship, it is like a non-paid internship for the summer whereby I am working alongside a nurse 1-1 all summer and learning more and doing more than we have done in previous clinical rotations.  I have been lucky enough to be assigned to the Family Birth Center at Tacoma General.  I am very happy and excited to see what I will be dealing with this summer and learning more than I have learned already.  But let's face it, I'm mostly excited because hello....babies!!!  Or as I keep telling people, I will be elbow deep in vag for most of the summer.  Ha ha.  I start tomorrow, Wednesday, and am greatly looking forward to it.  I'm also excited because typically in labor and delivery you get to wear hospital issued scrubs which means....no ugly uncomfortable PLU scrubs for the summer.  Woohoo!

We had the first day of summer semester on Monday and so far it looks manageable and like I will do well.  I've definitely already put a lot of effort in as I'm 11 out of 14 chapters into one of the books we need to read for the summer.  I actually printed stuff out ahead of time and am using my organizer book; which is odd for me to say the least.  So some exciting things coming up (not necessarily in any particular order):  Kendra's UW Graduation, Devan's 9th Birthday, Will's 39th Birthday, Sarah's Baby Shower, and of course Kerry's 41st Birthday too!  It is going to be a very busy summer I can tell already.  Enough for now, on to today's song...

"Turning Tables"~Adele

Close enough to start a war
All that I have is on the floor
God only knows what we're fighting for
All that I say, you always say more

I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb I can't breathe

So, I won't let you close enough to hurt me
No, I won't rescue you to just desert me
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables

Under haunted skies I see you
Where love is lost your ghost is found
I braved a hundred storms to leave you
As hard as you try, no, I will never be knocked down

I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb I can't breathe

So, I won't let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won't rescue you to just desert me
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables

Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
When the thunder calls for me
Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
Standing on my own two feet

I won't let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won't rescue you to just desert me
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables
Turning tables, yeah
Turning, oh 

Sunday, June 05, 2011

Keeping Up!

No, not with the Joneses, but at some points today with my best friend Tiffany.  Today Tiffany ran her 26.2 miles for a full marathon completed.  Sarah (the twinnie) and I traveled out to Port Angeles to support both her and Alyssa (who was running her first 1/2 marathon).  We of course did our usual awesome sign making and were glad that we were able to see both of the girls during their runs (we unfortunately missed Alyssa's big finish at about 2 hours 15 minutes).  What was awesome was being able to run w/Tiffany during several spots along her race path.  We caught her at the beginning of her race, her halfway point, about 20 miles, and then I caught her again around 25.2 miles.  Devan and I ran with her at the 20 mile mark and she was feeling pretty tired at that point.  I decided while we were waiting at the finish line for her that I would walk further down and run with her towards the finish, a final motivator on that last push of hers towards the full thing being finished.  So I kept walking until I came to a bridge and I waited there for her.  It was awesome to see my bff running towards me, looking very tired and ready to be done, but still running.  I started running alongside her and checking on how she was doing, if she was staying hydrated, and how she was feeling overall.  At one point she told me, "If I ever want to do this again, remind me how awful this feels right now and tell me I'm on drugs".  LOL.  It was pretty hilarious.  But she did make it to the end and finished in just under 5 hours, thinking around 4 hrs 55 minutes.  I'm very proud of Tiffany, even though sometimes along her training path we all wished the marathon was already over, I know that she worked hard to achieve this and am very proud of her for doing so.  She is officially a runner girl and has been since her first 1/2 marathon.  She inspires me to work out and push myself harder than I normally would.  She is amazing!!  I love you Tiffany.

"Suddenly I See"~KT Tunstall

Her face is a map of the world
Is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

I feel like walking the world
Like walking the world
You can hear she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on her word

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me 

Wednesday, June 01, 2011

Complicated

"Why is everything with you so complicated?" title of this blog post and of course the first line of my post courtesy of Rihanna.  That's what is on my mind tonight.  I know it's something of a vague title and I'm sure some of you would like me to explain it in detail while others of you are pretty much reading this thinking...why the fuck do you even bother?  Yeah, I don't know either.  Sometimes I just feel like writing and for the hell of it, I write it to this blog and put it out there for everyone to see/read.  But dear reader, lest you think you know me from my posts, what I really want said and what I keep deep down and personal....it's not written this way.  Yes I write what I want to when it's dark, deep, or serious....it just goes to someone else and is shared in a much smaller circle.  I know, that seems weird for someone who is so open about things, but sometimes only certain people can understand, so I share that with them.
Been in a little bit of a bad mood this evening.  All my plans for tomorrow, Thursday, were canceled (for pretty good reasons, but still a bummer) so now I'm at home with the TV, my dog friend Hurley (who I'm dog sitting), the fireplace on and a six pack of Blue Moon's summer seasonal ale.  Not a horrible way to spend a Wednesday night, but it's mostly out of annoyance/defeatedness which really sucks.  (Yes, I am aware defeatedness isn't a word but you'll just have to roll with it).  On top of all of this, I am apparently one of two (out of 17) of my classmates that hasn't yet got their preceptor-ship.  So, I'm supposed to start this next week and still have no idea what department, hours, or facility I will be working in...just know that I will be at a multicare facility.  ARGH!
Ok, so unrelated to any of these topics, and totally off subject and likely too much information I recently got some new bras.  These bras make my boobs look awesome and I love them.  Thanks for allowing the interjection of my boob information.
I went running with my best friend today.  She did four miles and I got about 2.25 in, but it was awesome to be out there in the sun with her.  We got our runs in right before the rain came back and killed the awesome weather.  She is running her FULL MARATHON this weekend and I know she will do awesome.  Twinnie and I will be there to support her with our home made posters like usual.  Can't wait!!

Ok, not much else to update with, so song for tonight...

One and Only ~ Adele
"One And Only"

You've been on my mind
I grow fonder every day,
lose myself in time just thinking of your face
God only knows why it's taking me so long
to let my doubts go
You're the only one that I want

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before
Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all,
You never know if you never try to forget your past
And simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I'm worth it to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance

To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile
Until the end starts

Have I been on your mind?
You hang on every word I say, lose yourself in time
At the mention of my name, will I ever know
How it feels to hold you close
And have you tell me which ever road I chose you'll go

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before
Every feeling every word, I've imagined it all,
You never know if you never tried to forgive your past
And simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance

To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile
Until the end starts

I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart
I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart

(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've earned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart
(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've earned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart

I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worth it to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance

To prove I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts
Come and give me the chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts.