Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Connection

This post will be short, but to the point, and just had to share something that happened with me today.  I had clinicals today at the nursing home.  I've been helping out at meal times in the assisted dining area (an area where people have either mechanical/emotional/psychosocial barriers to eating on their own) and was working with a resident who is 92 years old and has pretty advanced dementia.  Her food has to be pureed, never a pretty sight of course, but unavoidable given her medical issues.  She was taking pretty good bites for me (forgot to mention she can't talk, but sometimes does hum) and as I was pausing between spoonfuls of food I put my hand down on hers and just touched her.  Such a simple thing but it seemed to make a big difference.  I can't tell you she perked up per se, but she did start taking bigger bites for me and I continued to hold her hand in between bites.  After she was mostly finished eating I just held her hand for quite sometime and her face got very relaxed and her eyes drifted close just a bit, she seemed at peace.  Not having worked with dementia patients much before I sought out my teacher to tell her about my experience and find out some more about what I could expect with them.  She said, for all I know, the patient was possibly imagining that my touch was maybe that of her mother holding her hand, or perhaps a long deceased friend come back to visit, any number of things.  It touched me, and I think it will always stay with me.
So simple, yet so important.  No song can accompany that.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Almost Done!

Happy Birthday to my wife Kerry, today is her 40th birthday and I know she's having a great time with Beth and Kelly as we speak.  Totally jealous about the fact that we finally have some nice weather and luckily the girls get to enjoy it at the beach.  Alas, here I am with school, some clinical time (at the oh so exciting nursing home), and at least I get a storm game thrown in there.  That part is awesome.
Clinical time has been...well not my favorite, but hey, I sort of already knew that this semester's clinical would not be my favorite.  This is definitely not my target age population nor is it my interest area per se.  However, I did assist in a mechanical lift today, did some peri care, as well as assisted with feeding some residents (which I also did last week, but the experience is just different every time.  I'm looking forward to next semester much more, which will involve our adult clinical rotations (which includes med/surg and psych-which I am super stoked for).
Well, not a super lot more to post since life is not all that exciting with busy busy school going on.  The grass is coming in pretty green and looking good, so I'm definitely glad that is happening.  I'm heading to the storm game now, so I'll see ya all on the flip side.

Tick Tick Boom, The Hives
Yeah, [x3]
I was right all along,
Yeah, [x3]
You come tagging along,
Exhibit A,
On a tray,
What you say,
Ends up thrown in your face,
Exhibit B,
What you see,
Well that's me,
I'll put you back in your place

Yeah I've done it before,
And I can do it some more,
So what you waiting for?
Yeah!
I was right all along!

[Chorus]

You know I've done it before,
And I can do it some more,
I've got my eye on the score,
I'm gonna cut through the floor,
It's too late,
It's too soon,
Or is it...

Tick Tick Tick Tick Tick Tick Tick...Boom!

Yeah, [x3]
I was right you were wrong,
Yeah, [x3]
Going, going you're gone!
I saw you yesterday, waiting too much,
Till it slipped through your hands,
And then you stagger to your feet and out the door,
Cos there's no second chance!

[Chorus]

Now you come crying to me...
But it's too late!
The man you're proud to be,
But it's too late!
Get your head out of the sand,
But it's too late...

It's too late,
Too late,
Too late,
Too late!

Yeah!
But it's too late! [x2]

Get your head out of the sand,
But it's too late!

[Chorus]

It's too late,
It's too soon,
It's too late,
It's too soon,
It's too late,
It's too soon,

Or is it...

Tick Tick Tick Tick Tick Tick Tick....
BOOM

Monday, July 19, 2010

Slightly Better

Ok so it hasn't quite been a month since my last post, I figure that means I am getting better, right?!?  Ok, maybe not.  It seems like all I have time for these days is school, and the random fun event from time to time.  For those who don't already know, found out a week ago that my band has eroded into my stomach.  Had the appointment with the surgeon just this most recent Friday and luckily enough I can wait for the removal until this semester is over.  Thankfully that will give me almost 3 weeks of healing time and I should be all set for fall semester to start.
So recently found out that some people, who shall remain nameless, are reading my blog whom I would rather were not reading it.  Amazingly enough, I expected something different, but hey, this is what I get for opening the blog back up to the public.  I guess though that if you're reading this, and you're not a friend of mine, you should know that this comes with a warning....maybe you will see things you don't want to and you will have to know things you should have left alone.  And obviously, if I know you're reading this blog, how do you think I know it?!?  Guess somebody's been LIED to....sorry you have to find out the hard way that no promises have been kept.  Makes you wonder what else you don't know, doesn't it?
Ok, so off of that rant for now.  Sorry for all of you that had to witness it, but it had to be done.  I'm not a victim, nor will I become one, just because somebody thinks I should be.  What is that line exactly, "you shall know the truth, and it shall set you free"...at least I know my truth.
Six weeks of school done now, 4 more to go this quarter and things are going well.  Start clinicals this week, which means we will get to do things on real patients!  We also start the second half of our competencies course, which means next week I'll be starting injections/IV's and blood draws.   Look out world, here I come.
And on that note, I love to leave you with a song...

Usher
"My Way"
I Do
Any and everything you won't do
Make your girl say ooh ooh
Why is he so fly
She beeps me,whenever she wanna get freaky
You can get mad if you want too
Say whatever you want be she still gon' give it up 
Cause she likes it..
 
She likes it my way,My way
You can't satisfy her needs
She keeps runnin' back to see me do it 
My Way, My Way
What I say goes,and i'm in control

Bad ass senorita's, two seaters with kicks
And new kick's ya'll all up in my mix
I don't turn no tricks, they turn for me
Catchin' bricks don't concern me
So forget lil' midget, My minds on 7 digits
Before I pay heaven's skies a visit, now dig it
I'm pullin' all stops
Knockin down all spots
Sayin' you can't front on me

So from this day forth you know It's all about me
And what I do be the major league
That's why your girlfriend's paging me
and she know like you know, you don't see her like I see her
So she's out the do'

Shot gun in my drop havin' fun with the Don, system, bassing
Conversation 
All about how she be chasin' me and facin' me sayin' give it to me now baby

My Way, My Way
You can't satisfy her needs
she keeps runnin' back to see me do it
My Way, My Way
What I say goes and i'm in control

Don't check me
It was your girl who let me
Take it this far then, ooh wee
She had to have every chance that she could get
But you think you a baller
and i ain't gon' call her
Clip that, you can get mad if you want to
Say whatever you want but she still gon' give it up
Cause she likes it..

My Way, My Way
You can't satisfy her needs
She keeps runnin' back to see me do it
My Way, My Way 
What I say goes and i'm in control
My, Way, My Way (I do any & everything you want to)
You can't satisfy her needs 
she keeps runnin' back to see me do it
My Way, My Way (I do any & everything you want to ohh)
What I say goes and i'm in control"

Sunday, July 04, 2010

3 Weeks Down, 5 More to Go-For Now

I've completed my 3rd week of classes, and boy are they just as tough as I thought they would be.  I am taking a break from studying today to post this blog, gotta keep my sanity intact somehow.  Back in the soccer groove again and working my way into the running groove too.  First couple games back and I've been playing goalie for indoor games....and as usual I love it.  I'm sliding out more for balls than I ever have before, now if I could just learn how to slide out onto my knees without easily pulling my groin muscles that would be awesome.  On Friday's game, I took a ball to the crotch region (mostly my inner thighs) and Niko said, "Aunt Jaime, did you get kicked in the knickies?"  It was hilarious....he's my little monkey, love that boy.
Traveled to Eastern WA yesterday for Lilith Fair with Sarah (free tickets from the storm organization, thank you very much).  Took some great pictures and had an awesome time.  Highlights of the day: people watching, cracking jokes w/Sarah and of course the awesome main stage performers: Colbie Callait, Sheryl Crow, Sugarland, Erykah Badu, and to top the evening off....Sarah Mclachlan.  Such an awesome day/night.  Of course, per usual, I am always emotionally effected by music.  Tried to warn Sarah before some songs were sang that I might get emotional...sometimes I can't even seem to help it.
Had a bit of a breakdown last week with school.  We had this, beyond imagineable, advanced pathophysiology test.  I did not do well; the test scores are not back yet, but I already know I did not do well.  Suddenly the whole situation was too overwhelming to bear.  I felt like I was the biggest idiot ever born, and attempting to do this, complete a master's degree and obtain my licensing in nursing suddenly seemed like the most stupid idea I had ever come up with to date.  It was not a good night here in the Minnock household as I prepared to study for the impossible test and yet still feel like I even had a brain left.  But, the test is over now, and I'm using it as a way to improve and change my studying for that class going forward.  I keep telling myself that no one has failed out of the program yet....and I sure as hell will not be the first.
It felt like a few years ago I lost myself, but I'm getting myself back...or at least understanding, loving, and accepting myself for who I am.  Not who someone expects me to be, or what I SHOULD be (which we all know I never do what I should do), or what I could be....but just being ok with who and what I am.  Also, learning to not being defined...neither by my sexuality, my mind, my personality...I resist definement.  How's that?  And with that...I head back to studying...but not before I leave you with a song of course.

Sarah McLachlan, Stupid.
"Night lift up the shades
let in the brilliant light of morning
but steady there now
for I am weak and starving for mercy
sleep has left me alone
to carry the weight of unravelling where we went wrong
it's all I can do to hang on
to keep me from falling
into old familiar shoes
how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see

love has made me a fool
it set me on fire and watched as I floundered
unable to speak
except to cry out and wait for your answer
but you come around in your time
speaking of fabulous places
create an oasis
dries up as soon as you're gone
you leave me here burning
in this desert without you


how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see


everything changes
everything falls apart
can't stop to feel myself losing control
but deep in my senses I know"