Thursday, December 03, 2009

Happy December

It's December already. This year has gone by so quickly. I am not sad at its passing though, aside from having to turn another year old of course. It has not been the best year in our house, so we're hoping next year will be much better. For me, I'm hoping that means getting into my program at PLU. I hate having to wait for anything of course, but waiting over four months to find out what your future might hold in terms of a career...that's just LAME. I am working on a contract in covington. It's supposed to last through at least the end of december, if not longer. I'm hoping it goes longer, even though it is pretty boring and very easy to do. There are worse things about a job, right? I mean how about working at starbucks, at the tacoma mall, during the holiday season?!? Crazy-maybe, but it's busy and I like that part. Plus I've left behind the drama of my old store and have moved on past the immaturity there. That is not to say that I don't have my own immaturity still intact. Fiona Apple is rocking my ipod right now: Never is a Promise "You'll never see the courage I know Its colors' richness won't appear within your view I'll never glow - the way that you glow Your presence dominates the judgements made on you But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights The shades and shadows undulate in my perception My feelings swell and stretch; I see from greater heights I understand what I am still too proud to mention - to you You'll say you understand, but You don't understand You'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye But never is a promise, and you can't afford to lie You'll never touch - these things that I hold The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own You'll never feel the heat of this soul My fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown - to you You'll say, Don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie You'll never live the life that I live I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night You'll never hear the message I give You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights The shades and shadows undulate in my perception My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights I realize what I am now too smart to mention - to you You'll say you understand, you'll never understand I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why I don't know what to believe in, you don't know who I am You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry But never is a promise and I'll never need a lie "

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