Monday, August 31, 2009

Another Song

"Maybe"~Ingrid Michaelson
I don't want to be the one to say goodbye But I will, I will, I will I don't want to sit on the pavement while you fly But I will, I will, oh yes I will Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back The only way to really know is to really let it go Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back to me I don't want to be the first to let it go But I know, I know, I know If you have the last hands that I want to hold Then I know I've got to let them go Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back The only way to really know is to really let it go Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back I still feel you on the right side of the bed And I still feel you in the blankets pulled over my head But I'm gonna wash away, oh I'm gonna wash away everything til you come home to me Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back In the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back The only way to really know is to really let it go Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back to me You're gonna come back to me You're gonna come back to me

Friday, August 28, 2009

I'm official!

Well we already knew I was official, but now I am an official too! I finished my soccer referee clinic today and passed with flying colors. So now it's out to the pitch to make some money...oh wait I have to get my gear together first. LOL.
I've made it to two storm games so far this week, get another one on Saturday. Also, getting a pedicure with Shelley for her birthday and I have one more ref 101 clinic on Saturday to finish up. Then I'm off for a week, nothing to do but get refereeing stuff together, coaching Devan's soccer team, and whatever other trouble I can manage to get myself into. I plan on getting something fixed in the front yard (with CC's help of course). Wicked coming up on the 6th, that will always be a good time. "limited, i'm limited, and just look at you you can do all you said you'd do, glinda, so now it's up to you" Yeah that's right, I know the lyrics to the songs, don't hate, it shouldn't really surprise you.
So one of the things that bothered me today. Hypocrisy, in any form. Of course I'm not going to lie and say that I've never been a hypocrite from time to time, I have, but I try hard not to be. Case in point today what I witnessed...someone is told not to text message people but then that person sits there and texts on their phone all the time. Why is that? Oh well, I am sure there are plenty of things I will never understand.
Let Me Go
Am I the snake inside your garden The sugar in your tea The knock upon your back door The twist that turns your key Am I the sweat you feel on your head The shadow on your face The tune inside your head that put you here in the first place Well I don't want to be I don't want to be I don't want to be your sweet temptation I don't want to be your new sensation It's just a delicate distraction With just a hint of satisfaction Look me in the eye and let me know If you can't love me that let me go Let me go Let me go Do you try to stay suspended In your deepest fantasy After night has ended The scent of mystery The power of suggestion Tangles up your soul A neutral state between love and hate Is bound to take its toll Well I don't think you know I don't think you know I don't think you know about the screaming You don't understand the meaning You could trade it in for laughter To keep your happy ever after Look me in the eye and let me know If you can't love me then let me go Let me go Let me go Baby in your ivory tower Do you sleep tight dream fight Baby does it wet your appetite Maybe in your darkest hour Am I the keeper of your beast Well I don't want to be I don't want to be So let me go Let me go

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Classes Done!

I'm so glad that classes are done..now on to the next stressor. GRE's and my PLU application. I registered to take the GRE on September 16th, so that gives me slightly less than a month to get some studying/review in. I ended up with at least the minimum GPA's I needed in everything, so that's good for me at least. I'm debating right now on who to have fill out my letters of recommendation. Fingers crossed that I actually get into this program. Start coaching (help coaching) Devan's soccer team next week with Will. I hope it goes ok, me a coach, of 7 year old girls...holy crap. Ha ha.
We went camping this weekend, the whole extended family (minus the Hahns unfortunately) at Takhlakh Lake. I pulled the trailer up and down just fine, even managed to get it hooked up, disconnected, and rehooked up on my own (with Kerry's help of course). Then on Monday, Kerry, Tiff, Michelle and I went to the Melissa Etheridge concert up at Tulalip. It was fricking sweet! We also went gambling afterwards which of course I'm always a big fan of (when I have money anyway). Since school has ended for awhile, it's back to the gym and working out for me. Too many dang troubles with this band this summer and haven't lost as much as I wanted to, although still in a better place than I have been in awhile. See ya all on the flip side.
I'm not the sort of person Who falls in and quickly out of love But to you I gave my affection right from the start If I have a lover who loves me How could I break such a heart, You can still get my attention right from the start Why do you come here when you know I got troubles enough? Why do you call me when you know I can't answer the phone? Make me lie when I don't want to And make someone else some kind of unknowing fool You make me stay when I should not Are you so strong or is the weakness in me? Why do you come here and pretend to be just passing by? But I need to see you And I need to hold you....tightly Baby Feelin guilty..worried Waking from tormented sleep This old love has me bound but the new love cuts deep. If I choose now, I lose out Cause one of us has to fall I need you and you alone Why do you come here when you know I got troubles enough? Why do you call me when you know I can't answer the phone? You make me lie when I don't want to And make someone else some kind of unknowing fool. You make me stay when I should not Are you so strong or is the weakness in me? You make me lie when I don't want to And make someone else some kind of unknowing fool. You make me stay when I should not. Are you so strong or is the weakness in me? Why do you come here and pretend to be just passing by When I need to see you And I need hold you....tightly

Thursday, August 06, 2009

Just a Song Today

"Sooner or Later"
Lipstick, pretty face And maybe you'll notice something Different about me, different about me Yeah you talk talk all you want You pour your heart out But you never do see, you never do see me You, I can't wait forever for you Chorus: Sooner or later You're gonna come around You'll be sorry When you figure out That I was always Everything that you needed Sooner or later You're gonna wish you had me Yeah you're gonna wish you had me Well she don't do Nothing for you But mess you up Yeah she messes you up I'm your shoulder I'm the quick drive over Tryin to fix your stuff Well I give up You, you never see me standing right in front of you Chorus: Sooner or later You're gonna come around You'll be sorry When you figure out That I was always Everything that you needed Sooner or later You're gonna wish you had me Oh you're gonna wish me back so bad, so bad Oh well it's a little too late for that Lipstick, pretty face And maybe you'll notice something Different about me, different about me Chorus: Sooner or later You're gonna come around You'll be sorry When you figure out That I was always Everything that you needed Sooner or later, oh Chorus Sooner or later You're gonna come around You'll be sorry When you figure out That I was always Everything that you needed Sooner or later You're gonna wish you had me Oh you're gonna wish you had me

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

It's so hard...

It's hard to keep up on this blogging thing sometimes. I mean amazingly enough, I am never at a loss for words, but sometimes you just wonder...do I really need to post about that, does anyone care?!? Oh well, it's not for you guys anyway, its mostly for me. A way to vent, a way to write, a way to get things out and above board that might otherwise overwhelm me and drown me inside of them. But I digress...
This quarter is over in a week and a half. I am glad to be done with classes for awhile, although I must then focus on getting into a nursing school (preferably into the PLU program, but hey, I will take whatever I get). If I get in at PLU my program doesn't start until next summer, so I will just be working, playing soccer, and coaching Devan's soccer team with Will.
I'm going to my first Sounders game tonight, and it's against Barcelona. It should be an awesome time. I'm at home right now, studying for my microbiology lab for tomorrow morning. I still have six more chapters to read for psychology so that I can take the last test sometime this week. I'm taking the sounder train up to meet K in Tukwila, so I'm hoping to get some of that reading done on the trip. Ha ha.
"It's All Your Fault" I'd conjure up the thought of being gone But I'd probably even do that wrong I try to think about which way Would I be able to and would I be afraid Cause oh I'm bleeding out inside Oh I don't even mind (yeah) It's all your fault You called me beautiful You turned me out And now I can't turn back I hold my breath Because you were perfect But I'm running out of air And it's not fair Da da dada da dada da Da dadadadadada da dadadadadada I'm trying to figure out what else to say (what else could I say?) To make you turn around and come back this way (Would you just come back this way) I feel like we could be really awesome together So make up your mind cause it's now or never (oh) It's all your fault You called me beautiful You turned me out And now I can't turn back I hold my breath Because you were perfect But I'm running out of air And it's not fair I would never pull the trigger But I've cried wolf a thousand times I wish you could Feel as bad as I do I have lost my mind It's all your fault You called me beautiful You turned me out And now I can't turn back I hold (I hold) my breath (my breath) Because you were perfect But I'm running out of air (running out of air) And it's not fair (Oh yeah It's all your fault) I hold my breath Because you were perfect But I'm running out of air And it's not (it's not) fair