Thursday, December 03, 2009

Happy December

It's December already. This year has gone by so quickly. I am not sad at its passing though, aside from having to turn another year old of course. It has not been the best year in our house, so we're hoping next year will be much better. For me, I'm hoping that means getting into my program at PLU. I hate having to wait for anything of course, but waiting over four months to find out what your future might hold in terms of a career...that's just LAME. I am working on a contract in covington. It's supposed to last through at least the end of december, if not longer. I'm hoping it goes longer, even though it is pretty boring and very easy to do. There are worse things about a job, right? I mean how about working at starbucks, at the tacoma mall, during the holiday season?!? Crazy-maybe, but it's busy and I like that part. Plus I've left behind the drama of my old store and have moved on past the immaturity there. That is not to say that I don't have my own immaturity still intact. Fiona Apple is rocking my ipod right now: Never is a Promise "You'll never see the courage I know Its colors' richness won't appear within your view I'll never glow - the way that you glow Your presence dominates the judgements made on you But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights The shades and shadows undulate in my perception My feelings swell and stretch; I see from greater heights I understand what I am still too proud to mention - to you You'll say you understand, but You don't understand You'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye But never is a promise, and you can't afford to lie You'll never touch - these things that I hold The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own You'll never feel the heat of this soul My fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown - to you You'll say, Don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie You'll never live the life that I live I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night You'll never hear the message I give You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights The shades and shadows undulate in my perception My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights I realize what I am now too smart to mention - to you You'll say you understand, you'll never understand I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why I don't know what to believe in, you don't know who I am You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry But never is a promise and I'll never need a lie "

Sunday, October 18, 2009

What a Weekend!

Wow, it's been such a busy/exciting/topsy turvy weekend. I got a job offer (at least 2-4 weeks, possibly more) at multicare, I start tomorrow. The CLEATS tied their game on Saturday and my big girl Devan scored a goal. She also did this hilarious butt check thing but I can't even begin to describe it in any way someone would understand. We celebrated Frances' first birthday, she was such a good girl and it was so cute to see her interact with everyone. I went to my first wine tasting with Tiffany. Then we both went out with Laurie, Scott, and Kaitlynn to the haunted woods/corn maze up at Maris Farms. That was fun/scary/hilarious. Today I had to scramble around to find people to cover my shifts at starbucks, and then I hung out with CC for most of the day. We went to see Paranormal Activity...OMG it was so freaking good, scary creepy good.
That's about it for now...

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Wow...Big Break!!

So, I just didn't realize that it had been over a month since I had posted. Weird isn't it how much time can fly. Tiffany turned a year older, Frances is about to be 1 year old, and Niko will be 4 at the end of the month. October is a busy month around the family. LOL
I completed by PLU grad school application and submitted it yesterday. The only thing left to do is wait for my letters of recommendation and to submit my nursing packet addendum.
Soccer refereeing is in full swing. I was supposed to referee two games today, but the second game was canceled and I still got paid. Love that. I'm on the lookout for a new job, have to find something where I can get more hours and make more money (isn't everybody?). I hate the fact that because I left my well paying job in Seattle we now have to struggle a bit more. I try to remind myself that it will all work out and everything will be ok (especially if I get into my nursing program), but sometimes in the day to day....its just too hard. I found a bookmark my sister gave me one or two birthdays ago that had a great quote on it and now I'm going to ruin it...something about worrying about your troubles will not lighten them tomorrow but will hinder the enjoyment of today. Makes sense, doesn't it.
Quote of the week (courtesy of Zombieland): "Time to nut up or shut up!"

Monday, September 07, 2009

New Beginnings..Somewhat

Alright everybody, for those of you that get these emails, you will also likely see an invitation to view my blog. For reasons mostly I need to know, my blog is now private (as opposed to being able to be seen by everyone). I want just those of you I know and love to see what is going on with me, not be perved at by those I need to cut out of my life and/or random strangers who really, let's face it, likely have no interest in my life or random ramblings. Unlike you poor suckers that I like to expose to my inane blogging, which mostly doesn't make sense, but hey, at least I am reaching out to you all through the cyber world.
Just ordered my referee's kit online, so as soon as that's here I'll be rocking and rolling to referee some games. Finished doing Devan's soccer team shorts last night so they are ready to hand out tomorrow at practice. Then we have team pictures on Wednesday. GO CLEATS!!
Anyway off to clean house, like I like to do.
xoxo-Jaime

Monday, August 31, 2009

Another Song

"Maybe"~Ingrid Michaelson
I don't want to be the one to say goodbye But I will, I will, I will I don't want to sit on the pavement while you fly But I will, I will, oh yes I will Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back The only way to really know is to really let it go Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back to me I don't want to be the first to let it go But I know, I know, I know If you have the last hands that I want to hold Then I know I've got to let them go Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back The only way to really know is to really let it go Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back I still feel you on the right side of the bed And I still feel you in the blankets pulled over my head But I'm gonna wash away, oh I'm gonna wash away everything til you come home to me Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back In the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back The only way to really know is to really let it go Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back to me You're gonna come back to me You're gonna come back to me

Friday, August 28, 2009

I'm official!

Well we already knew I was official, but now I am an official too! I finished my soccer referee clinic today and passed with flying colors. So now it's out to the pitch to make some money...oh wait I have to get my gear together first. LOL.
I've made it to two storm games so far this week, get another one on Saturday. Also, getting a pedicure with Shelley for her birthday and I have one more ref 101 clinic on Saturday to finish up. Then I'm off for a week, nothing to do but get refereeing stuff together, coaching Devan's soccer team, and whatever other trouble I can manage to get myself into. I plan on getting something fixed in the front yard (with CC's help of course). Wicked coming up on the 6th, that will always be a good time. "limited, i'm limited, and just look at you you can do all you said you'd do, glinda, so now it's up to you" Yeah that's right, I know the lyrics to the songs, don't hate, it shouldn't really surprise you.
So one of the things that bothered me today. Hypocrisy, in any form. Of course I'm not going to lie and say that I've never been a hypocrite from time to time, I have, but I try hard not to be. Case in point today what I witnessed...someone is told not to text message people but then that person sits there and texts on their phone all the time. Why is that? Oh well, I am sure there are plenty of things I will never understand.
Let Me Go
Am I the snake inside your garden The sugar in your tea The knock upon your back door The twist that turns your key Am I the sweat you feel on your head The shadow on your face The tune inside your head that put you here in the first place Well I don't want to be I don't want to be I don't want to be your sweet temptation I don't want to be your new sensation It's just a delicate distraction With just a hint of satisfaction Look me in the eye and let me know If you can't love me that let me go Let me go Let me go Do you try to stay suspended In your deepest fantasy After night has ended The scent of mystery The power of suggestion Tangles up your soul A neutral state between love and hate Is bound to take its toll Well I don't think you know I don't think you know I don't think you know about the screaming You don't understand the meaning You could trade it in for laughter To keep your happy ever after Look me in the eye and let me know If you can't love me then let me go Let me go Let me go Baby in your ivory tower Do you sleep tight dream fight Baby does it wet your appetite Maybe in your darkest hour Am I the keeper of your beast Well I don't want to be I don't want to be So let me go Let me go

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Classes Done!

I'm so glad that classes are done..now on to the next stressor. GRE's and my PLU application. I registered to take the GRE on September 16th, so that gives me slightly less than a month to get some studying/review in. I ended up with at least the minimum GPA's I needed in everything, so that's good for me at least. I'm debating right now on who to have fill out my letters of recommendation. Fingers crossed that I actually get into this program. Start coaching (help coaching) Devan's soccer team next week with Will. I hope it goes ok, me a coach, of 7 year old girls...holy crap. Ha ha.
We went camping this weekend, the whole extended family (minus the Hahns unfortunately) at Takhlakh Lake. I pulled the trailer up and down just fine, even managed to get it hooked up, disconnected, and rehooked up on my own (with Kerry's help of course). Then on Monday, Kerry, Tiff, Michelle and I went to the Melissa Etheridge concert up at Tulalip. It was fricking sweet! We also went gambling afterwards which of course I'm always a big fan of (when I have money anyway). Since school has ended for awhile, it's back to the gym and working out for me. Too many dang troubles with this band this summer and haven't lost as much as I wanted to, although still in a better place than I have been in awhile. See ya all on the flip side.
I'm not the sort of person Who falls in and quickly out of love But to you I gave my affection right from the start If I have a lover who loves me How could I break such a heart, You can still get my attention right from the start Why do you come here when you know I got troubles enough? Why do you call me when you know I can't answer the phone? Make me lie when I don't want to And make someone else some kind of unknowing fool You make me stay when I should not Are you so strong or is the weakness in me? Why do you come here and pretend to be just passing by? But I need to see you And I need to hold you....tightly Baby Feelin guilty..worried Waking from tormented sleep This old love has me bound but the new love cuts deep. If I choose now, I lose out Cause one of us has to fall I need you and you alone Why do you come here when you know I got troubles enough? Why do you call me when you know I can't answer the phone? You make me lie when I don't want to And make someone else some kind of unknowing fool. You make me stay when I should not Are you so strong or is the weakness in me? You make me lie when I don't want to And make someone else some kind of unknowing fool. You make me stay when I should not. Are you so strong or is the weakness in me? Why do you come here and pretend to be just passing by When I need to see you And I need hold you....tightly

Thursday, August 06, 2009

Just a Song Today

"Sooner or Later"
Lipstick, pretty face And maybe you'll notice something Different about me, different about me Yeah you talk talk all you want You pour your heart out But you never do see, you never do see me You, I can't wait forever for you Chorus: Sooner or later You're gonna come around You'll be sorry When you figure out That I was always Everything that you needed Sooner or later You're gonna wish you had me Yeah you're gonna wish you had me Well she don't do Nothing for you But mess you up Yeah she messes you up I'm your shoulder I'm the quick drive over Tryin to fix your stuff Well I give up You, you never see me standing right in front of you Chorus: Sooner or later You're gonna come around You'll be sorry When you figure out That I was always Everything that you needed Sooner or later You're gonna wish you had me Oh you're gonna wish me back so bad, so bad Oh well it's a little too late for that Lipstick, pretty face And maybe you'll notice something Different about me, different about me Chorus: Sooner or later You're gonna come around You'll be sorry When you figure out That I was always Everything that you needed Sooner or later, oh Chorus Sooner or later You're gonna come around You'll be sorry When you figure out That I was always Everything that you needed Sooner or later You're gonna wish you had me Oh you're gonna wish you had me

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

It's so hard...

It's hard to keep up on this blogging thing sometimes. I mean amazingly enough, I am never at a loss for words, but sometimes you just wonder...do I really need to post about that, does anyone care?!? Oh well, it's not for you guys anyway, its mostly for me. A way to vent, a way to write, a way to get things out and above board that might otherwise overwhelm me and drown me inside of them. But I digress...
This quarter is over in a week and a half. I am glad to be done with classes for awhile, although I must then focus on getting into a nursing school (preferably into the PLU program, but hey, I will take whatever I get). If I get in at PLU my program doesn't start until next summer, so I will just be working, playing soccer, and coaching Devan's soccer team with Will.
I'm going to my first Sounders game tonight, and it's against Barcelona. It should be an awesome time. I'm at home right now, studying for my microbiology lab for tomorrow morning. I still have six more chapters to read for psychology so that I can take the last test sometime this week. I'm taking the sounder train up to meet K in Tukwila, so I'm hoping to get some of that reading done on the trip. Ha ha.
"It's All Your Fault" I'd conjure up the thought of being gone But I'd probably even do that wrong I try to think about which way Would I be able to and would I be afraid Cause oh I'm bleeding out inside Oh I don't even mind (yeah) It's all your fault You called me beautiful You turned me out And now I can't turn back I hold my breath Because you were perfect But I'm running out of air And it's not fair Da da dada da dada da Da dadadadadada da dadadadadada I'm trying to figure out what else to say (what else could I say?) To make you turn around and come back this way (Would you just come back this way) I feel like we could be really awesome together So make up your mind cause it's now or never (oh) It's all your fault You called me beautiful You turned me out And now I can't turn back I hold my breath Because you were perfect But I'm running out of air And it's not fair I would never pull the trigger But I've cried wolf a thousand times I wish you could Feel as bad as I do I have lost my mind It's all your fault You called me beautiful You turned me out And now I can't turn back I hold (I hold) my breath (my breath) Because you were perfect But I'm running out of air (running out of air) And it's not fair (Oh yeah It's all your fault) I hold my breath Because you were perfect But I'm running out of air And it's not (it's not) fair

Thursday, July 09, 2009

Lag Time (Not to be confused with Log Time)

Yeah don't mind the title joke, it's a microbiology thing, you likely won't understand and will not find funny unless you are me. Okay so it's been a month (since I've posted, since I've talked to someone, so many things). Oh first off, I lost 10lbs last month. Halla fricking lula, that's what I'm saying about that. In bad news, turns out my band was too tight, was causing problems with massive chest pains and really bad heart burn feeling, so as of yesterday my band is currently unfilled. Yes that's right, I can now eat anything to my heart's content...oh god what a bad thing. Ha ha. Although I am so freaking happy to be not in pain it's ok. I go in tomorrow morning for another endoscopy to determine if my band has slipped and/or to see if my hiatal hernia has returned or gotten worse. Fingers crossed that both of those things have not happened. Assuming they have not, I go back into the doctor's on the 27th (Kerry's birthday for those of you keeping track at home) to have him fill me back up to just slightly under where I was last time. YEAH!!
So this quarter of school is going well so far. 92% on my first microbiology test and I get my A&P test back tonight, so hopefully that one will be great also. Additionally, my A&P professor from last quarter emailed me telling me that he had readjusted the weight of pop quizzes which adversely affected me since I was one of the few people who did WELL on them and he switched my grade to a 3.0 which means...I DON'T HAVE TO RETAKE THAT FRICKING CLASS. This just leaves me with taking the GRE in the fall and then applying to PLU's program, getting accepted and working my ASS off until then paying off as much debt as possible. It's all totally within my reach people.
Leaving for Maui on wednesday, can't wait. Although I am already tan of course (well as tan as this freakishly pale chick sometimes gets anyway), I can't wait to get even more tan from the Maui sun and possibly checking out the nude beach near our hotel.
Lyrics:
"Come To Me (Peace)" That was love That was then That was us, miracles I changed you You changed me This is how these things go I was broke And you were scared But you stayed by my side, yea I was yours You were mine It seemed we'd last forever, oh yea I'd be the one you need You would be the one I marry And I'm just trying to invite my way back in your heart And I'm telling you to... Come to me I'll restore freedom I'll carve away the worries in your heart Your heart is missed I'm a mess, what happened to second chance This is now, this is how easy things can get out of hand We were cold, and we were slow then, now we end faster than light, than light And I'm not ashamed cause my love ain't changed I'm prepared to beg you back the whole way Bring me your arms, I'll bring mine too And we will heal, mend, me and you, telling you... Come to me I'll restore freedom I'll carve away the worries in your heart I'm telling you to... Through my doors, and take my hand Replace our love beyond this land This is just too much to give away I love you baby, so why don't you stay Let the air of your voice dry my tears Let "I love you", fall on my ears I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you I want you to just... Come to me I'll restore freedom I'll carve away your worries in your heart I'm here to make peace peace peace between you and I Wanna make peace with you peace baby I don't wanna fight, I just wanna do everything right Show me how to make peace with you I do wanna make peace with you

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

They are In..

Grades are in, and YEAH I got a 3.4 in chemistry, but BOO I only got a 2.9 in A&P. I'm pretty annoyed about this A&P grade and have emailed my professor to find out what's going on. I had a 3.3 prior to the final, and did not completely bomb it, so was very shocked when he emailed me that grade. Worst case scenario I will retake it for a better grade during fall quarter (while I am studying for the GRE, yeah good times).
This is supposed to be my week off, but I have picked up several shifts and am working some good hours. I worked from 5am-1030 this morning and later today I am going with Shelley to get pedicures in Tukwila. I got invited to play soccer tonight at Marymoor, so yeah I am going to do that. AND tomorrow is This End Up's playoff game at 645 at Ingraham HS, and since I don't have class I get to do that as well. Oh, and Friday it's STORM basketball. Yeah!
Less than a month until we leave for Maui! I can't wait to get out of town for awhile. Sigh.
Lyrics:
Piece by piece I take apart This complicated heart And I hope to find Something I can prove is real I can feel is truth I can say is mine That's all I ever wanted to be The closer that I got The further I could see But when lovers change And the night feels strange We choose our road The letting go

Friday, June 12, 2009

They are Done!

Finals are officially over. I finished my A&P final today in 45 minutes then headed off to do some much needed relaxing. Oh, I did get to sell back some of my books for a whopping $160 bucks which is of course currently burning a hole in my pocket. (Well not currently as it is almost 1am and the only place open is wal-mart and I don't need more shit from there).
Just got done watching "He's just not that into you" and boy it was pretty on the money. I can't really say it was an eye opener per se, however it did remind me of some things that we sometimes lose sight of in the day to day. The of course, accurate yet heartbreaking quote at the end of the movie, "Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope." But sometimes we do, don't we? As a species, humanity is not full of hope to begin with. Don't get me wrong, some people are. Those of you that are like me, the ones that have suffered enough things in their lives...sometimes we just give on hope. Hope is something that's hard to believe in, because to have hope that is ultimately never fulfilled, that is to be crushed, hurt, to be vulnerable. Who wants to lay their heart out on the line like that. Oh wait, that's me right....I do that. Stupid girl...
Devan turned seven today, Will's birthday is tomorrow (I think it's 37, I know, bad friend), it's been a birthday week. I'm meeting Tiffany for some kickboxing tomorrow (god forgive me my knee for I know not what I do), then helping her decorate cupcakes for devan's swim party on saturday. I actually need to go pick up her present also, and I think I'd like to pick her up from school since I didn't see her on her birthday...which makes me very sad. Birthdays are important to me, I don't know why, they just are. With so many things that go on in our lives, all the hustle and bustle of everyday living, having that one day that is just for you (and of course yes i realize all the other people born the same day), that means something. A day that everyone should be celebrated and valued because of their uniqueness, their je ne sais quoi, that thing that makes us love them most. My dev girl, she's a special lady, and no way she could be copied.
Lyrics:
You get me When nobody understands You come and take the chance, baby You get me You look inside my wild mind Never knowing what you'll find And still you want me all the time Yeah, you do Yeah, you get me

Monday, June 08, 2009

Kill Week

Well it's the last week of classes for Spring 2009. Of course, my online psychology is slightly less than close to being finished, however I should do well both in chemistry and a&p. I mean I would really to say I'm getting 4.0's in both classes, but it's been a tough quarter, so hey, above the minimum requirements for what I need is good enough for me.
Yesterday was the storm season opener and they played a great game. I really enjoyed our new seats which are basically courtside. It was weird. On the one hand I am usually yelling at the players, refs, coaches, etc. On the other hand when you feel like they can actually hear you yelling at them you feel a little self conscious. I did however tell LJ that I loved her, although as Kerry pointed out, I didn't say it loud enough. Oh well, there is always next time.
So finals this week, then I have next week off, absolutely no classes and aside from one shift I picked up I am not working. How did I get so lucky?!? oh that's right, I asked for that off, duh!
Kerry and I had a fun weekend at Michelle's place. I got to use my new golf clubs and we had a great time playing the worst 9 holes of my life I'm sure. Ha ha. But hey, a few beers and driving a golf cart....that is always a good time.
Oh and because I'm a sucker, I just offered to open tomorrow for one of my girls at starbucks. Yeah!!
Today's Lyrics:
Turn it inside out so I can see The part of you that's drifting over me And when I wake you're, you're never there But when I sleep you're, you're everywhere You're everywhere

Thursday, May 28, 2009

It was yesterday..

Yesterday was my birthday.  Thank you to all of those who wished me a happy one.  It's funny...sometimes you are surprised by those who care for you and wish you a happy birthday.  And then othertimes you are surprised by those you thought cared...who didn't even say hello/booya/kiss my ass to you on your birthday.  Oh well, I guess yet again it lets you know who really matters in your life and who is just.....absent.
Tiffany & Niko took me out to lunch at BJ's brewery at the tacoma mall.  I picked up Kerry's ring from Jared.  I hung out with Liz at my house while I washed my truck.  Oh that reminds me, cause you all know I love cleaning...my wonderful wife got me a shark mop, some shamwows, some perfume and.....ROCK BAND!!  I am so excited.  We will totally be ready for the white trash party tomorrow night.
I've been updating my music in itunes for the last few days.  Found one of my old cd holders with cd's i'd been looking for forever.  It takes too long to import CD's into itunes, but I am working on it.  I am also taking some music out of my playlist, stuff that reminds me of shit I'd rather not think about or stuff that is just too damned depressing.
I registered for summer classes today.  I am the 2nd person on the waitlist for my A&P class. Hopefully I get in because it's pretty much the last class (along with microbiology) that is required.  Then I can start applying everywhere.  Fingers crossed that I get in somewhere.  Otherwise I'll be working two jobs for awhile until I get in someplace!  Ha ha.
xoxo

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Tattoos and all that shnooz....

Okay so shnooz isn't really a word, but its okay, you'll just have to accept it for now.  I got my tattoos last night up in Bonney Lake at Ink City Tattoo.  I highly recommend my new favorite tattoo artist, a woman named Jayme Jack.  Not that I'm biased, but how cool is it that someone named Jayme did my tatts?  Jenn's fiancee, Brandon, designed my angel and devil them, and then Jayme helped pick out and fill in the colors.  I love them as they incorporate both my naughty and nice (angel and devil) and my typical gemini situation (being of two minds about everything).  
So these tattoos were mostly supposed to be my birthday present, but funny thing.  Yesterday was the one year anniversary since my surgery.  I have had my lapband officially now for one year and am pretty happy with my results.  It's nice to be able to buy some (not all) clothes in regular stores now.  If only I wasn't so freaking tall....
First storm game was on Thursday night (preseason game).  I had my muscle practical so I wasn't able to attend, but Kerry and Liz went out and apparently had a VERY good time.  Ha ha.  So, because I needed something to do....I steam cleaned the rest of the house carpets upstairs.  Now I only have the two spare bedrooms to do.  I LOVE clean carpets.  Oh let's face it, I just like to clean period...and I am okay with that.  
My birthday is on Wednesday, I can't believe how fast time flies.  I am going to be 31 years old...wow I feel old.  UGH!!
xoxo

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

moon baby

Interesting times around our house these days...but what can you expect.  So much upheaval and change in such a short period of time is bound to makes waves/cause issues/bring about...well change I suppose.  I got a 90% on my last A&P test, which brought my grade high enough to be in the right range for the nursing application for pierce college anyway.  No idea what it needs to be for UW, but I'm pushing it as high as I can.  I'm sitting at a 95% in chemistry right now, which is just fine for me.
Hard workout last night and today, so my abs are so sore that they actually make it hard to feel hungry (i.e. my sore abs somewhat resemble an upset stomach, argh).
Why does someone email you telling you how badly they want to talk to you but they don't know how or what to say?  Isn't that like telling someone you'd like to help them but the freeway to their house is closed....I don't get it.
How do you define what a friend is?  I think sometimes its easier to define what one is not when you can't describe what one is.  I can tell you all kinds of things about why I have friends like Tiffany, Kendra, Shelley, Liz, Keri.  But sometimes I think trying to define friendship is difficult.  I guess its a lot like love in that way, unless you are the one in it and experiencing it, you cannot describe it, and no one else outside of the two people experiencing it fully understand it.  Is that why we then say "they just don't understand"?
I think of these things as my eldest niece is becoming a young woman.  I remember what it was like to be that age and I would give anything to protect her from what I went through or from what her mom went through.  I look at Devan and try to encourage her to do all the things I know she can accomplish, same for Niko.  I look at my peep (Frances) and laugh at her trying to imitate the noises I make with my mouth, knowing that just being around her for a period of time, no matter how brief, can lift my spirits.
I am glad to be alive, truly, and yet at the same time I sort of feel like this (can you name the movie?):
"Sometimes I feel like there's a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean. The moon tonight, there's a circle around it. Sign of trouble not far behind. I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night, wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing... I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen. I don't know. Maybe I had my happiness. I don't want to believe it but, there is no man, Gilly. Only that moon"

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Instead of Studying

I've been studying for at least four hours now.  I did that at Starbucks because when I try to study at home, I end up focusing on all the things I can do around the house instead.  That makes it hard to study!  I have my second a&p test tonight and with what I've accomplished so far in studying...I am feeling pretty confident about it.
Mother's day went pretty well.  My mom took several of the big plants out of the backyard and I transplanted the rest of what I wanted to the front yard.  Now the backyard is a soupy dirty mess, and just waiting for us to lay down the foundation to a new deck!  Way to go team.
It's been rough for me since Friday, physically at least (and obviously emotionally as well).  I have been having the cramps of my life (I'm sure you all wanted to know that) and today I woke up with a huge headache that I've had to keep fighting off with drugs.  Maybe it's stress, maybe it's a combination of things...maybe it's life.  Oh well.
Movie/Book Quote time: "I don't have the strength to stay away from you anymore."  
Yeah, maybe Liz is right, maybe it's a cult.  But I just believe it's a completely moving love story, and the movie does it somewhat limited justice.
Alright, I've got an hour until class starts, so I'm going to finish studying.  I'm glad I decided to take tomorrow off from work, free time for me. 
Song:
Like the morning sun your eyes will follow me  As you watch me wander, curse the powers that be  Cause all I want is here and now but its already been and gone  Our intentions always last that bit too long  Far far away, no voices sounding, no one around me and  you're still there  Far far away, no choices passing, no time confounds me and you're still there  In the full moons light I listen to the stream  And in between the silence hear you calling me  But I don't know where I am and I don't trust who I've been  And If I come home how will I ever leave

Saturday, May 09, 2009

Randomness...In all its Finery!

"Your love in all its finery, tear up the darkness all around me, until I can breathe again, until I believe again."
Yes, this post will be pretty random.  So strap in, hold on, and enjoy the ride.  As I've been feeling really random today.  We went to see the Carrie Fisher show at Seattle Rep, "Wishful Drinking", it was pretty much hilarious and there were a few take aways that I thought were funny.  First one: resentment is like drinking poison....and waiting for the other person to die.  Second one-instant gratification takes too long.  I don't know there were a lot of other things too, perhaps I will start writing cf style, with random things to say and lots of funnies to distribute throughout life.  
When someone tells you they wishes they were stronger, what do you do, do you wish them strength, do you tell them to lift weights, what is the answer to that question?!?
When someone asks if it ever bothers you to be so honest with everyone...isn't that like a rhetorical question?!?  Of course it does, because being honest and sharing myself with everyone means that I am open, I am vulnerable, and occasionally I will get hurt because of this.  But my heart heals, as they say "all things heal in time" and my heart I find has only been bruised, not broken.
There is a new option for me as far as the nursing program goes, but I happen to think it a pretty excellent one.  I found out from my meds person on Thursday that the UW offers a nursing entry program for individuals who already have a bachelors degree in another field of study.  It is a 3 year immersion program, which means one more than the RN, and at the end of the program I would come out with my masters in nursing (or my ARNP), both of which are super great degrees and could potentially earn me a lot of money.  Aside from that, as an ARNP I can have my pick of specialties and if eventually I feel like it, can have my own private practice.  Yet another awesome potential.  Oh, and did I mention that ARNP's can prescribe meds....woohoo.  Just kidding.
Next A&P test is on Tuesday.  People, keep your fingers crossed for me pretty please, kay?!?
"I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth Please don't tell me that we had that conversation I won't remember, save your breath, 'cos what's the use? Ah, the night is calling? And it whispers to me softly come and play Ah, I am falling And If I let myself go I'm the only one to blame"

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Bones are...practical?

Tomorrow is the big day people, my bone practical in anatomy & physiology.  What this means?  Well he's going to put out about 26 different bones.  We have to be able to name the bones and likely the bony "landmarks" on the bones.  Didn't know bones had landmarks did you?  Well now you know and knowing...is half the battle.  What battle you may ask...well I don't know that's for you to figure out.  
This will be a short post, it's been a long day and the evening was a bit emotional for me.  And, for the love of god, I am opening tomorrow...I don't know why I told Liz I would do that.  You all know how much of a morning person I am.
Quote:
"I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all."

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I wanted a truck, I wanted a truck....

So I fricking got a truck, on Friday night. AND I love it. It's a silver quad cab Toyota Tacoma. Now I have always loved the Tacomas, have been in love with them since they first came out, back when I was like in, oh, I don't know, junior high?!? Haha. So now I have one and I'm not going to lie, I look pretty cute in it. I had an emotional day yesterday. So I gave into some retail therapy....and bought a new sound system for said truck. I'm not going to lie there either....it's fricking amazing. So it's nice to know that when I have no money I can hang out in my truck and listen to whatever music I so choose. Excellent. School is going well, I got a 95% on my first chemistry test-who didn't know that was coming (hello remember the last post here-chemistry loves me as I love it), I also got an 88% on my first psych test (yeah psych=psychos=I should have scored higher), and I only got a 76% on my first a&p test. I talked to my professor because let's face it, that's an ouch in my world. He said the first test is the hardest and that I can make up the score. I have to get above an 85% in that class just to raise my "points" high enough for my nursing application this summer. So fingers crossed on that one everyone. Yesterday was one month until my birthday. One month until my birthday and then what approximately 40 days give or take until the first storm game. SIGH...if only I could explain. Lyrics: "It's been so long That I haven't seen your face I'm tryna be strong But the strength I have is washing away It wont be long Before I get you by my side And just hold you, tease you, squeeze you Tell you what's been on my mind I wanna make up right now, na na I wanna make up right now, na na Wish we never broke up right now, na na We need to link up right now, na na" Yeah don't ask people...they just come to me. xoxo

Thursday, April 16, 2009

tattoo

its time for another tattoo folks. that's right, you know i've always needed a fifth one, which means eventually a sixth since i hate odd numbers. so, it's going on my right wrist, that much i know for sure. what it will contain is still up in the air. today i think i came up with something i might do. "ad idem" over a roman numeral II. ad idem=of the same mind...and of course we all know what the roman numeral stands for, right?!? if you don't know, you're retarded so just move on. it's sunny out today, very beautiful, reminds me of summer. summer means storm games are coming. storm games mean....well they mean something that's for sure. not sure if disneyland is happening now, hopefully it will, but things are too much up in the air. i can't believe i'm going to be 31 next month, where the hell does the time go? a year seems to pass without so much as a second glance and without much thought about it. but so much can change in a year, so many things can be seen through a different viewpoint, a different lens on life, a different heart. a year seems like a long time, so how can it pass so quickly? do you remember where you were a year ago, do you know what you were doing? i do...it never fails. argh, i don't really want to go to class, i pretty much can't stand this class. i think it's the teacher, i hope it gets better, i really do. oh hey, but i still love chemistry, and chemistry loves me back. "I pull the covers 'cross the bed I tuck away the thoughts in my head And I live behind closed doors Knowing I will always love you more"

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Overwhelming

You know what I mean, right? You get to that point where all of the little things have started to add up, up, up and up and suddenly they are right on top of you and there is nothing you can do and all you want to do is scream and cry and kick your way out of it, like you are trying to surface from under the biggest tidal wave. And then you do and its peaceful and calm and the water is blue and the oxygen fills your lungs....yeah I'm waiting for that peaceful blue moment right now. Keep your fingers crossed for me that it happens sooner than later. On another note, have you ever had this thing (a thought, a person, an issue, a concern, etc) that you just couldn't get out of your head, no matter how hard you tried? That even though you deny it, you ignore it for as long as possible, push it aside in your mind, not feeding it by dwelling on it...even though you do all of those things, despite having any sustenance to do so, it stays strong inside of you, a silent but deadly reminder that it won't just go away. How does it live on despite the absence of any type of positive feedback that should keep it around? And then I just think....hell this is who I am right? It has to roll around in my head forever until I can find the "answer" so that I can be right or whatever it is I need to feel better about it. Okay, now I am just free flow typing and I'm not even sure I'm making sense, but I don't care, it's my blog, I just want to write. I used to write, I used to have an outlet for some of this stuff. Some of that has been denied to me, for better or worse, but I still do sometimes. I write where nobody else can see it, where only I have access to it, where I am the only person there to put out every secret thought I have, especially those that no one wants to hear about but me. "How are you?" people ask, but they don't want the real answer do they, we all want to hear, "I'm good, how are you?" and so that's what we say. To our closest we say, no really, how are you, because we care and we want to know and we want to help, empathize, sympathize, whatever it may be. What's my point with this conversation....I don't know, I don't have one, do I ever?!?! "Oh baby dont you know I suffer? Oh baby can you hear me moan? You caught me under false pretenses How long before you let me go? You set my soul alight"

Sunday, April 12, 2009

More song lyrics.

Sometimes the song lyrics just fit at the moment, so its easier than writing my own crap sometimes. Ha ha. Happy Easter Everyone. "Leave Out All The Rest" I dreamed I was missing You were so scared But no one would listen Cause no one else cared After my dreaming I woke with this fear What am I leaving When I'm done here So if you're asking me I want you to know When my time comes Forget the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed And don't resent me And when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory Leave out all the rest Leave out all the rest Don't be afraid I've taken my beating I've shared what I made I'm strong on the surface Not all the way through I've never been perfect But neither have you So if you're asking me I want you to know When my time comes Forget the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed Don't resent me And when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory Leave out all the rest Leave out all the rest Forgetting All the hurt inside You've learned to hide so well Pretending Someone else can come and save me from myself I can't be who you are

Monday, April 06, 2009

Stuck inside of me...

"How can I decide what's right When you're clouding up my mind? I can't win You're losing sight All the time Not gonna ever own what's mine When you're always taking sides But you won't take away my pride No, not this time Not this time How did we get here? I used to know you so well How did we get here? Well, I think I know The truth is hiding in your eyes And it's hanging on your tongue Just boiling in my blood But you think that I can't see What kind of man that you are If you're a man at all Well, I will figure this one out On my own On my own How did we get here? I used to know you so well, yeah How did we get here? Well, I think I know Do you see what we've done? We've gone and made such fools Of ourselves Do you see what we've done? We've gone and made such fools Of ourselves How did we get here? I used to know you so well, yeah How did we get here? Well, I used to know you so well I think I know I think I know There is something I see in you It might kill me I want it to be true"

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Love is not matter

Yes, that's correct people, love is not matter. Now I'm not saying love does not matter, I'm saying it is not matter. Matter has been defined for me as that which has mass and takes up space and as we can all clearly ascertain, love does not physically take up space or have mass. But boy, if you are the person feeling it (or the loss of it) it sure does seem like it is matter doesn't it? Haven't you ever felt the weight of a broken heart resting deeply in your chest, occupying the area that used to be filled with happiness and light. Oh well, I guess it's a scientific notion versus a belief. So, I have chemistry again this quarter and my first round of anatomy and physiology. I found out in A&P last night that we are going to have dissect fetal pigs this quarter. Yeah me, remind me again why it is that I think I can be a nurse. I really thought I was going to be sick when he was just talking about it. But I guess it's better than cats. Jenn was telling me a story about how they dissected cats in her A&P class and that when she opened her cat up there were four unborn kittens in there....now that is nasty/disgusting/horrifying to me. Not to mention the fact that hello, I have cats, I don't know if I could dissect one. Well only a month and a few days until we all head to Disneyland. Me, Kerry, Tiff, Will & the kids. It will be a very exciting and much needed vacation. So far it looks like it will work just fine with my school schedule so that's good. Lyrics today: "Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?You’re whole life waiting on the ring to prove you’re not alone? Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?" xoxo-J

Friday, March 20, 2009

TWO!!!

Two, that's right people, I'm down two whole sizes!! Tiffany and I went shopping today for Renee's bachelorette party coming up and I got a new dress, and its cute, and it looks really hot on me. Oh so that's just the first part of my news. The second part is that we went to Victoria's Secret and I got sized for a bra. Um, hello ladies....I wear a 38D!! That's right a DDDDDDDDDDD. I am so excited. Here I am thinking I am super small chested, but amazingly enough, I am not small chested. Mich-wait until you see my new bras; my boobs look huge. Big thanks to Tiffany and Devan for being my audience so that I could find appropriate clothing for this shindig coming up. I'm excited about this, can you tell?!? I wasn't going to blog anymore but I couldn't resist shouting this out to the world.......

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

It's March 4, 2009

Yeah, so obviously my creativity does not lie in coming up with a blog title, so there you have it, the date...how excited are you now to read my blog?!? So, for those of you that do not know about my recent struggles, here is the update. I have been debating for some time on what to do with the puppy. My beautiful girl, Lilly, is adorable and is and will continue to be a great dog. However, with as many hours as I've been working, and what I will be doing with my volunteering at Mary Bridge, on top of the fact that my classes are going to get progressively harder, I have decided that I do not fairly have enough time to spend with the dog. I therefore have decided to give her to Gene and Cynthia. They will be able to spend more time with her, Gene has always wanted a pitbull, and Isaiah will make a great play companion for her. I love my dog dearly, but do not want her to feel neglected in anyway by the lack of time that I will continue to have for her in the future. This decision of course affects my mom greatly, because we know "how she feels about her animals" as she put it, but I know in my heart it will be the best choice for Lilly. As an example, I got my biology exam back today. Let's just say, I didn't do very well, and I know that it was because I did not have time to re-read my chapters as I should have because I was feeling guilty about puppy and spending time with her. So, because I will not have the dog occupying much of my time, I have made a new commitment to myself. I will be in the gym 1-2 hours everyday (unless its a soccer night of course). I have goals to make from this surgery and after finally seeing some results, I am more motivated than ever to reach my ultimate goal. Next quarter, I have chemistry and anatomy and physiology. I am excited for both, as I have discovered that I have a great aptitude for chemistry and am excited to begin the first round of anatomy and physiology. I will also hopefully, fingers crossed, keep up my progress on psychology so that I can get it finished up. Oh and I am hopefully starting part-time at my sister's hotel too. They were waiting for an opening and someone just got fired. YEAH ME, hotel discount here I come. Tiff-let's talk Disney, shall we?!? xoxo-J

Friday, February 27, 2009

Friday

It's Friday, that's great news, right?!? Ha ha. Well let's see, I finished my biology paper late last night, at around 12:30 and got it emailed and printed out this morning so that is all good. I know it wasn't my best paper either, but hey, I am a natural born writer sometimes and it will definitely be good enough for this teacher. I got registered for next quarter's classes. Happy to say that I had met with an advisor yesterday and found out that I was closer than I thought, which means I can apply to Pierce's nursing program this spring for entrance winter quarter and I can apply to TCC's program for fall quarter. That is exciting news. I am also one step closer to starting my volunteership at Mary Bridge. I went in to the hospital today to get my booster for MMR, so that is cool too, although my arm is a bit sore at the moment. Before I get into nursing school I also have to start the rounds of Hep vaccinations, yeah!! More pricks in the arm. One more paper to write for biology, but it is more of a personalized essay about our volunteer work. Chemistry project due in two weeks, which will be easy also. I'm happy to tell everyone I have a 4.0 in chemistry right now and about a 3.5 in biology which is great for me. Haven't made enough progress in psych yet, but plan on getting some done in the next two weeks (good thing its a self paced class). ha ha. xoxo-LC

Monday, February 23, 2009

Chance, Fate, Destiny?

I can't help thinking about those things these days. I know I probably shouldn't, some would say it's not dealing with what I can control but worrying about that which I have no control. But its those things that I worry about. I have to believe that the things that are meant to happen will happen, even if not on the time schedule I would like. I need to believe in myself, and the knowledge that no matter what comes my way, I will be okay, I will survive and hopefully thrive. I have to remember that I have friends who love me and care about me, and a family that does the same. I try to remind myself of all of these things on the days when it is not going the way that I would like it to, that everything is not combining in a way to make it my most positive upbeat uplifting type of day. Or as a friend (or two) recently used and I will borrow from here, an "I am under the bell jar" type of day. But what do you do when you are someone who wants to talk, who needs to talk, and yet the thing you want to talk about is something that nobody wants to hear about, that people do not understand, that makes you feel more alone in the world than anything else?!? Then what do you do, well you try to be a person who doesn't want/need to talk about stuff, you hide it inside of you and hope that it doesn't show to everyone else and that nobody notices. You hope that it goes away, even though you are pretty sure that it won't, ever. How do you let go of something that has gripped you so fiercely, so intensely, that you know deep down inside, that you are right, that no matter what the world shows you or what you perceive/perceived, you know you were right. How do you look at what everyone says is true and know that it is false? You don't right, you tell yourself you are crazy, that people know better than you, that you must be wrong. And then you cycle through it all over again. Please don't read this blog and think I need you to call and check on me. I don't, and you don't need to. I am okay and will always be. "I miss the sound of your voice, The loudest thing in my head, And I ache to remember, All the violent, sweet, perfect words that you said"

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Can or can not.

"What I need to do is turn this car around, Drive as fast as I can 'til I see the lights of our hometown, And run to her, take her in my arms" I went to the beach today. Amazing that we got here yesterday but nobody went down there until today. Go figure. I did myself some thinking down there at the beach (a dangerous past time for the crazy lady I know). I realized some things, or at least acknowledged and came to truly understand some things. I know that I can not change who I am, but I can choose to let only the good parts of me show. I know that I can not change what people do to me, but I can change how I react to them. I know that I can not change what my appearance is, but I can continue to exercise and build a strong healthy body. I know that the I cannot worry about the future, but I can focus on my state of being in the present. I know that I cannot change who loves me and who doesn't, but I can treat everyone as they deserve to be treated. I know that I cannot help everyone who needs it, but I can do somethings for those that ask for my help. There was more, but now that its later in the evening I've of course forgotten some of them. We took Peep in the pool today, she liked it and we all had a good time. Moms cooking dinner now and then my sister and I are hitting the SUPER hopping bars in town. Ha ha ha. All of you that see these blogs, I love you all. Happy Valentine's Day.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Oceans Apart....Day after Day

Okay so not really apart per se, but I am heading to the ocean this weekend. As some of you already, my sister turned 40 yesterday. For her birthday last night we actually went out to the muckleshoot buffet (yeah, such a great thing for me who can't really eat much but that's cool), and ended up gambling for several hours. I came out ahead, which is pretty much awesome so I am glad about that. So for the rest of her birthday extravaganza we (as in me, her, my niece Peep, and my mom) are heading to Long Beach, WA for a little R&R (or not so much as any family gathering with my family can turn out to be). 3 generations altogether in one hotel suite, it should be fun that is sure. Tomorrow is my second biology exam. I know it doesn't seem like it since I am posting a blog, but I have studied much harder for this exam and I really hope that I do well. I know the weather might suck at the beach, but I plan on running at least once everyday that I am there. I have another fill (finally) on Monday and am doing really well losing weight, so I want to keep that up. There is still many things worrying me every day. I hope, when I am at the beach, that maybe I can write those things down in the sand and let the waves wash them away. xoxo. LC

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

The Right Thing

Well, what a loaded title for a blog, right? But hey, you'll understand why in a little while. As you probably read in my last post, Kerry and I were trying to help a friend out recently. Turns out, you can't help someone who won't help himself. Needless to say, our friend Terry is no longer staying here and he won't be returning here anytime in the near future. Bummer news, but hey, can't blame myself (even though that is what I want to do) because people have issues and you can only try to do your best. I have never claimed to be perfect, nor do I ever expect to be, but I try to do the right things, even if sometimes those are not the "right things" for me according to others. I want right now to not question why it is I put my faith/trust/love in people that do not deserve it. Is it something I am doing wrong, or the people that I choose just not worthy of what I have to offer them. I don't know. Not a positive day. Post again some other time. LC

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Superbowl Sunday

It's superbowl sunday. I'd like to say that I'm having a huge party and everyone is invited, however I have to work, go me!! Ha ha. But I am okay with that, because I could care less about the cardinals or the steelers, so watching the superbowl is overrated to me this year. I wonder who I am closing with though, that makes all the difference in how the day goes at work. I closed with connie last night. She freaking rocks! We were out of there on time and I got all my anal retentive cleaning done. Woohoo. Well for those of you that don't know, our friend Terry is living with us for a little while. Terry is a friend from college (Tiffany's college, not mine). So, wanted to let everyone know so that no one would be concerned if they called my house and a guy answers the phone. Ha ha. Although it is funny, given that with the exception of Lucky, this was an all girl house, so now having a guy living here can/will be different. No biggie. Onwards and upwards. Took my second chemistry test. I totally rocked it of course, I love chemistry I think, I must be weird. Oh wait, we ALL already knew that. I get the test back tomorrow, so I will know for sure, but I am certain I did pretty well. I finally got my DVD's for the psych class and was supposed to do a lot of psych studying this weekend, so far that hasn't really happened. I have done biology reading instead and have been worried about the dog. She hasn't been acting quite like her usual self since she has been home, we may be taking her to the vet's. Poor thing. Busy week this week, second interview for the volunteer position, second interview at Laurie's hotel so that I can be a fill in person for them. Oh wait, I just realized, now that I will be a hotel employee that means I can get my own cheap hotel rooms,whenever I want. YES!!!! That is freaking exciting. Oh wait, and of course making more money would be good too. Ha ha. Terry was happy to be here from spokane, said how the depression rating index in spokane was 100 and coming here (for him) it was a zero. I said hey, just wait, I bet I can change that for you. Ha ha. I'm a funny girl. xoxo-Lacey

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

It's Wednesday

It's Wednesday, normally a fairly decent day, but today it will be a long one for me. School now (surprise I even have the break to write this, but hey go figure), until 1pm. Then I go home for a 2 hour break (which I need to use to study) and then head to work at Starbucks of course. After work, working out with Jenn from work, so won't be home until late. But hey, I will be nice and exhausted on top of already being exhausted from last night, so hopefully I will sleep very well. Lilly is back home with us and is healing up nicely. She has been a little more tame since getting fixed, which I thought was just something that boy dogs went through. Apparently not. She's even been better with her potty training (mostly), although the few days away did give her crate training issues, so we're back to a crying dog for a few minutes when she's first put in there. I feel like such a guilty mommy, but we know its good for her and she's supposed to feel safe there and blah blah blah. Whatever. Let's see, secondary interview on Thursday with the head of the department at Mary Bridge where I will be volunteering. I'm sure that will go well. I'm more excited to get to play soccer on Thursday and Friday nights! YEAH!! My nice physical release. Oh and on Friday, Tiffany and I are working out together after my morning class is over. Awesome!! Did well on my biology test, not as well as I would like, but definitely good enough. Have to study harder for the next one. Guess this means studying more than say 1 hour the night before. Well, off to make up my chemistry lab from yesterday. But we all know that I will rock that. "Aahh, the night is calling?And it whispers to me softly come and playBut I, I am fallingAnd If I let myself go I'm the only one to blame"

Friday, January 23, 2009

So many things.

So many things happened this week, where to begin. Let's see, we swore in our new president and that was an auspicious day (yes its a ten letter word so sue me). I got my chemistry test back, and get this, I got the highest score in the class. There were 100 points possible, plus a 4 point bonus question (which by the way was what is our favorite color and why, hello, not a brain stumper here). I got 103 pts, yes I know, not perfect. She took a point off because I said the metric system was based on 100 instead of 10, I knew the right answer, but dang, just wrote that extra 0 on there. Oh well. I guess since 100 is a multiple of 10 she figured I still knew what was going on. I have my first biology test on Monday, so it will be study time for me this weekend. I also had my interview to volunteer at Mary Bridge hospital. I was hoping for the NICU obviously since that is where I would like to end up, but hey, got accepted for a brand new volunteer position in the pediatric day surgery unit. And it sounds like I will get a lot of interaction both with doctors, nurses, and families and kids. I get to help check kids in, get them setup and prepared for surgery, update the families, coordinate discharge and get ready for the next day's surgeries. I think it will be a good learning opportunity as well as a good networking tool. Plus I am doing something to give back to the community I someday hope to be joining. Thanks to Kendra and Tiffany for writing me letters of reference. YEAH! Lilly is away for the weekend as well. I dropped her off with her former foster mom yesterday and she is getting spayed today (maybe even as I write this). It was hard sending her off to get spayed and shots, of course being the anxious puppy mom I am I worry she's going to be traumatized, but I am sure she will be fine. Plus I get some puppy free time, which is pretty awesome. Well, I am sure I could write about lots of other stuff that is kind of boring to anyone not in my brain. But I will leave you all with the lyrics for the moment: "How did i become so obnoxious,What is it with you that makes me act like this,Ive neva been this nasty,Cant you tell that this is just a contest,The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest,But baby i dont mean it,"~Pink

Friday, January 16, 2009

Week Two Done

Okay so I had a chemistry test yesterday, I think it went pretty well. Today, I conquered the Pierce County food handlers card system, and obtained my food handlers permit. Let's just say, this test is not made for mensa type individuals. This test could be passed by someone who was 1/2 brain dead. I'm so glad that I made it through. Um, new rule at my house (will tell Kerry when she gets home from work today), when you are here, please make sure all the upstairs doors are closed with the exception of the cat's room. Yeah, my dog can now go up and down the stairs, oh and yeah she managed to make a mess in my room. Yeah, because when I get off work all I want to do is come home and steam clean the floors. AWESOME!! Oh well, live and learn. So, I'm glad work and school are both going well. I've been told to focus on them, that they are the things I can have some little control over. And you all know me, I am a control freak. So hard to not worry about the things I cannot control, and harder still not to even try to think about them. Okay the puppy is biting me, everywhere, so I guess its time for a walk. Peace out everyone.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

I love Purple!

Yeah, so typical me story, you will love this one. So today, it was shaping up to be a busy day. Wake up, walk the dog, get ready to go to my friend's bridal shower, take the dog to mom's, go to the shower with Tiff, come home, home for like 1/2 hour and then to work, then home to study. So, everything goes great, I come home, decide to get a few chores done while the dog is not here to need play time. I throw a load of clothes in the watch. Amazingly enough, I am so talented that I lifted the lid up, it caught on some piece of clothing I was holding and slammed back down.....on my FU*#ing pinky! So yeah, this hurts like all get out. I decide it's not that bad, I can bend it, and on my way to work I go. As I get closer to work it's kind of pulsing, and it's sort of changed color. Not great, but can still bend it and it's only changing color from the knuckle down. So I go to work, jamming along, having a good time. And then bam, I slam it against the bar because I was turning around too quickly. YEAH AWESOME! So needless to say my left pinky is now black/blue from the top part of the knuckle down. Oh and it's a bit bigger than normal. Hmmm, weird. So, yeah, not a great thing to have happen, but hey, I am me and I bounce back quickly. So funny story from yesterday though. Here's Tiff and I at the mall shopping for a bridal shower. Of course we decide to hit up vicky's secret and look for some lingerie, with Devan in tow no less. Yes, it was hilarious to explain to a 6 year old about lingerie. "And where is she going to wear this to?" she asks her mother and I with wide eyed innocence. How do you explain, but not explain to a kid what lingerie is for. Ha ha, "she's going to wear this to bed honey". "To sleep in?" she asks. "well of course" we reply. Because when you are six years old, we are not explaining to you what else can happen in a bedroom, that's for like sixth grade or something. Regardless, she now thinks our friend is crazy because that lingerie looks damn uncomfortable to her. My lovely niece. Second week of classes. Let's hope it goes well! xoxo-Lacey

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Week One

So, I survived week one of school. I am pretty glad I must say. Although I think biology is going to be more work than I was expecting, but we will see after the first exam anyway. Chemistry is going well, as is psychology, but hello~I am psycho, I should have like a phD in all things psychology related. Oh wait, if I had that I wouldn't be going back to school now would I?!? So another "guy" moment took place today, although this one was so subtle I almost didn't catch it. So I'm with Tiffany and Devan at the mall, shopping for Renee's bridal shower present, and I had to use the restroom. So I head on over, do my thing, and am washing my hands at the sink when this semi-older lady walked in (probably early 50's or so). She stops when she sees me at the sink and then pauses, kind of does a little back step, then goes forward into the stall to do her thing. Yeah, she thought I was a dude and she had walked into the men's bathroom. Um, for those of you with short hair that have been experiencing this for awhile (obviously this would not be me), you are probably used to it. As for me, it is driving me crazy. Hello, I am a girl, would like people to still see me that way. So I'm thinking I'm going to grow my hair back out. Please everyone hold onto your hats while I am in the in-between stage and not looking so hot! But lest you all be concerned, I am not completely going back to long hair, probably just a reverse bob. (If you don't know what that is, I will not bother to explain it to you). Potty training with the puppy is going much better. Yesterday she actually went to the door "asking" to be let out and that was adorable. Also she is getting more excited to go for walks on her leash which I am happy about because it gets her exercise (and me too), as well as getting her energy out so that she is not wanting to chew on everything (like my hands, feet, toes, clothes...you get the idea). But mostly she's doing good puppy things. Oh, except, the cats are now sneezing too. Now the vet says, kennel cough is not transferable, but apparently they can get a virus or what not. So waiting for that to run its course. Oh yeah, didn't have soccer last night, didn't work tonight. Aww how quickly things change. But we totally rocked on Thursday, 5-1!!! xoxo-LC

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

3 days In and Counting

Well, it's officially my 3rd day of classes. So far things are going well. But let's recap a few things that have happened. Um, at the bookstore, the clerk who makes sure everyone leaves their bags at the front, yeah, she called me sir. Awesome, yet again, I realize because I have short hair and had on a bulky jacket and because I am taller than the average chick, I expect this to happen from time to time. It is not that bad, however I don't like the uncomfortableness that follows when the person realizes their mistake and then makes the uh oh ah uh, sorry, kind of expression and noises. Go figure. Today, I went to walk out of my biology lab to use the restroom and a girl stopped me to ask me a question about adding the class because....wait for it...she thought I was the professor. Yes, this is apparently the highlight of my college experience to date because I am going to community college and am enrolled in daytime classes, there seem to be few older (gasp to say the word) students here during this time and apparently that makes me look like I am a teacher here. So to keep you up to speed....I am now a male professor. Thank you for playing along with this round of exciting things in my life. So, I don't work again until Sat/Sunday evenings. But I have soccer on Thurs/Fri, so that should help keep me busy. Oh and because several of you have asked and it's hard to explain on a daily basis, here is my school schedule. Mon/Wed I am in class from 8-10:50 and then again from 12-1:05pm. Tues/Thurs I have class from 12-1:05. Fridays I am in class from 8-8:50. Beyond that, I don't know where/what I will be doing, but hey, at least you all know that I am in classes at some point. Happy Wednesday Everyone!!

Sunday, January 04, 2009

First Post-2009

Happy New Year everyone! I hope the new year has brought everyone a lot of hope, love and peace for the new year's future. My new year has seemed so busy already, hence why it's taken me 4 days to post it. Crap, I just realized Keri J's birthday was yesterday. Keri, girlfriend, I love you and miss you....why did you have to go all the way to Alaska? Now I have no tall girl posse here. Sheesh, come back already. Happy Birthday though!! So let's see, I start school tomorrow. I am excited and nervous all at the same time. Kendra reassures me that I will breeze through, that it's just community college, and she knows I will find it much easier than I am expecting. I hope so, I really do! I'm two chapters into psychology still, haven't made much progress there, but hey, at least I'm two chapters in instead of two chapters behind. I got a new desk and chair from Ikea yesterday. I originally thought I would do just fine with what we have here (i.e. I could do homework at the dinner table right?!?), but the more I thought about it, the more I felt like I needed a dedicated area for homework and finances and stuff. So in the upstairs alcove is where it sits, Fredrik and Moses. Feel free to come visit them. Ha ha. I just got home from working at my starbucks, and in another hour I'm leaving to go work at Tiffany's starbucks. She got asked to cover a shift tonight, only to find out that someone had called out and had not been replaced, so she asked if I could work. I said hell yes, I'd love to come HIGH SCHOOL it up at your starbucks store. ha ha. It should be fun, seriously, and its only 3 hours. Plus it's like 1-1 time with Tiff without the kids (okay granted there are customers but whatever). My store was freaking crazy busy today, it was awesome. I ended up there like 15 minutes late because we had so many drinks backed up on the bar. Well, not sure how much or how often I will be posting with school, but you know me, I always have shit to say, so I'm sure it will be fairly frequently. Lyrics today: "I don't mind it.I still don't mind at all.It's like one of those bad dreams when you can't wake up.Looks like your given up you've had enough.But I want more no I won't stop'cause I just know you'll come around"