Sunday, November 30, 2008

Six Days

Well it's been six days since I left the old job behind, and I can't really say that I am sorry. You would think I would have all this time to sit at home and do nothing, but in reality I have not. Thanksgiving dinner was yummy and I am glad to have spent time with some of our friends and family,although obviously everyone wasn't here because of course they have their own families to visit. Sometimes I seriously think blood family is overrated, but of course that's just my own opinion. I worked black friday at TSA in Bellevue. Oh my god, 12 hours on the concrete was simply too much for me. Add that to the fact that I am pretty sure I was still drunk when I went to work at 4am (hello I apparently drank almost two bottles of wine on my own, why didn't anyone tell me)?!? So I didn't eat much that day or the next when I worked for another 7 hours. Took Devan to see Bolt on Saturday night, it was cute, but of course its about animals, which really tend to be so much simpler than humans its hard for them to not be cute. Today, a 3 year olds birthday party, then visiting with the hicks, then I was home, napping, then kendra/trina stopped by VERY briefly (dropped off our xmas wreath) and then it was me mixing margaritas to drink while I surf the net, update some stuff on facebook and myspace and send some emails. Yes an exciting life I have. Tomorrow I meet with my academic advisor and take Kerry's car in for some maintenance work. Tuesday I register for classes and start my first day at Starbucks, exciting!! xoxo LC

Monday, November 24, 2008

Eh,ugh, and argh.

Three days left at work (not including today). But hey, that’s totally fine, I already get to feel like a leper, which is super awesome if you ask me. The rest of my team has moved down to the other side of the building. So I’m sitting here on a big long trading desk, all by myself. What is that saying, no man is an island. Well I have news for them, I guess this chick for the next few days is an island. At least I’m not as big as one, ha ha ha, I’m so funny. I’m not having the best day, but lest anyone get any incorrect ideas, its just a bad day, nothing more, it too shall pass, as my mother always says. You see, in my selfish way about being me, I’m having some huge insecurity issues. It feels like I care about everyone way more than they care about me. Now I realize, this is likely not true, but does it make me FEEL any better, no, not really. You see, because I am ME, and I feel way too much for everyone. Even people I do not really know, I feel too much for them too. And lately, it feels like no matter what I do or what I say, it’s like I am not even here. Like I do not exist and people are pretending to listen to me (or not) but really I can see this vacant look in their face like hey, she’s talking again, we know its not important, we’ll just nod politely and move on. On top of this, why is it that I have to call people all the time to stay in touch, why is it that I have to email you all the time to stay in touch, why is it that we really only seem to do things when I am the one who tries to organize and/or arrange for it to happen? You see, I told you this would be a self indulgent rant and it is. Granted, I realize like I said before, that this is mostly me feeling sorry for myself, but it doesn’t matter. It’s the way I feel, and hell, it’s just the way I feel, nothing more to say about that. Lyrics: “Wish I could shut my playboy mouth. How'd I turn my shirt inside out? Inside out babe. Control your poison babe Roses with thorns they say. And we're all gettin' hosed tonight.”

Thursday, November 20, 2008

My record Keeps skipping.

Soooo I thought my week, yesterday, was getting better briefly. Yeah, not so much. Although I did spend part of my evening with Peep (which of course was wonderful, especially dancing around the living room with her while “Baby it’s cold outside” was playing on the computer, but anyway). So after babysitting, my sister took me back to Puyallup to get my car. Walk up and whoa, there is a police officer’s business card sitting on my drivers side window. At first I’m confused, until my super smart sister figures out that there is a note on the back of the card. It says, please call me at this #, your vehicle was struck and I need your information for the report. What the FUCK!?!? Sure enough, yes, there is indeed a mark on the front drivers side of my car, and the seam is a little uneven now, which means being the anal retentive person I am about my car, I will have to get this fixed. Hopefully the police officer’s card means that they have information about the other driver, fingers crossed. I guess the positive side to this story is that I was not in the car, thank god. I don’t want to go through another car accident. But I am fairly certain this week is me being paid for things I’ve done to increase my bad karma, I think I know a few things specifically. SIGH. Bad girl. So another thing that has been on my mind lately. School, job, money, surviving on one paycheck with my limited part time money coming in, that sort of thing. Yeah, I am excited to be making this change in my life, more than I can ever explain to all of you, but am worried about it at the same time. Kerry won’t be shocked when I admit this, but I really don’t love change so much. Oh don’t get me wrong, I love to do different things, as in not doing one task at a time but having my attention deficit disorder type way of doing them, but really, don’t move my cheese without warning as it will make me loopy crazy. Or more loopy crazy than normal anyway. And the holidays coming up, yeah good times, because nothing adds to your depression like all sorts of people who LOVE the holidays when you don’t really. I used to love them, mostly cause I loved the food. I don’t have that experience anymore. Although I still do like them for the fact that I love to see the kids get so excited about them. Ha ha. Lyrics: “Like Johnny and June, More than life itself, No-one else, This endless promise, They don't make love like that anymore, Is that too much to be askin' for,”

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Another Day, Another Dollar

Okay, so lest I worry anyone else, like I apparently did Tiffany (who called to check on me last night) but not Ray (who commented that my post was nice and short), I wanted to tell you all that I am doing just fine. It’s that time of the month (yeah to be a woman) and work with the layoffs and my own impending last day, plus just yeah, more than I can explain, has made for a rough couple of days. But never fear, I am okay, this is not me slipping into the black hole that means I will require babysitters again, okay people?!? But thank you for caring about me, cause that means a lot. So soccer last night, we lost, but I played the 2nd half like a fricking rockstar. I’m glad that I won’t be playing with this team anymore though. Which sucks to say that because it’s the lesbian team, but seriously some of the people on this team, yeah, they frustrate me to no f*cking degree. I had two moves I was super proud of. The other teams fastest girl, named Brit, yeah I kept up with her and managed to keep her from scoring or shooting, so she had to pass away, go me!! And secondly, on a corner kick, ball came right to me, and I headed that mother f**ker like a pro. Of course it hit the wrong part of my head and made me a bit dizzy, but hey, I didn’t need those brain cells anyway, right? So today, training with my main man Brent. Only a few more of those left too, which is a bummer because that means I will have to motivate myself to go to the gym. Which we all know I am so NOT GREAT at. I used to be more of a gym rat, but soccer has got me out of the gym and then its all I want to do. Hello, one tracked mind over here…oh wait, its not on that track though it’s on the “good” track, wink wink. Okay nevermind, inside joke, between me and…..myself. Huh. Go figure. Soccer tomorrow night at 845 at Twin Ponds, then again on Friday night (no idea time and place on that one off the top of my head). So, exciting evening for me tonight, I might visit Peep, might not. Might just go home, have more wine, a soak in the tub, and night night early for me (since I got home around 1130 last night). Lyrics: “If you think you need to go, If you wanted to be free, There’s just one thing you need to know, And that’s that you can’t count on me.” xoxo

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Blah

I want to write to everyone, I feel like I have a lot to say. But I find I have nothing positive or nice to write. So I'll spare everyone. And won't.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Two, One Day

yes i am going to post twice in one day. so i took my friend sonya home today after she was let go. pretty much a rotten day, i wonder what it will be like when i am at work these next few days. thank god not much time to go now. went in for a fill today. i was officially down 9.3 lbs in one month according to the doctors scale. small victory for me when the doctor says, oh you should be down about 50-60 lbs by now. well yeah, of course i fucking should, but we just found out that the bands you put in us after they were "modified" by the manufacturer apparently have a problem. gee, go figure. i'm sure its all my fault, that's why some of my fluid is gone every time i go in for a fill. whatever. so i felt like crap today, i decided to go visit Peep. she was apparently a pill for her mom today, but she was good for her dad and auntie meems. i even got to hold her for a few hours. usually she makes me feel so calm and relaxed. today i think, just too many emotions. oh well, i guess its that time of the month or some shit. i'm going to drink my wine and take a bath. peace out f*c*ers. ha ha. yeah its that kind of day.

Good, but then, BAD

My day started off pretty well today, got up, got ready, got my jamba juice with 3g charger (pure crack, I love it) and drove in to work. Got here by 8:40am (not bad) and am already doing work. Good day so far. Then my favorite guy here, Cameron (my big aussie brother), he comes down this way, and gives me the peace out handshake that we do and tells me he’s out. I look at him just shocked, and couldn’t move, couldn’t do anything. So then my brain started working and I hopped up and went out with him. Yes, he got laid off. An executive memo came out yesterday indicating that they’re going to be letting go of some staff, and because he was paid pretty well and more people here do the job like his, he was one of the first here in our office to go. I am so sad, so so sad, I love this guy, he’s truly like my big brother. So, we’re going to go out with him and his wife this Saturday. I told him it wasn’t an option that as long as they didn’t have plans we are totally going out and getting DRUNK. So yes, that is happening, and its not fun news but it is what is going on right now so I have to blog about it. So yes, was in a good mood, now kind of sad, but not in a depressed way. I love you Cameron!! So on a positive note, I will soon become a starbucks barista. I am sooo excited about this. One more thing falling into place before I start school, which is excellent news. I start working on December 2nd. So for any of you that are in Puyallup at some point, I will be at the store by Fred Meyer’s on 176th & Meridian. Ha ha. Oh yeah, but maybe wait a few weeks so I can actually make your drink correctly and be not so overwhelmed, as Tiffany tells me I will be. In addition to that, I register for classes that day as well, so that will be a very hectic but peacefully exciting day for me. Hey, that means I will have December 1st off, anyone have any plans!?!? Oh wait, you’re all still working, lame…. Lyrics today: “I need your patience and guidance, And all your lovin' and more, When thunder rolls through my life, Will you be able to weather the storm?”

Friday, November 14, 2008

PANIC (not at the disco)

Okay, so last night ended up being a very long night, poor me and even poorer for Kerry because she had to get up earlier than I did. I’m sorry honey! Okay so, we won our soccer game, awesome, 6-2, and I was hustling my ass off. I even had several of the team members telling me how much faster I am running these days, which is cool. So if you saw me play before, I guess you should come see me now, Wambach here I come (someday, if only). Okay so after soccer, 4 of the girls and I went to the Celtic Bayou to celebrate a birthday and of course we like having an excuse to drink, so that was all good. Marcey had to get up the earliest out of us, but I have to drive the farthest, either way we are all tired today that is for sure. Of course, me being me, I also ran out of gas on the way home so I had to stop in Kent for gas, which meant that I got home and hopped into bed around 1 o’clock in the morning. And this would be when the fun times happened. I took my nighttime pill like I always do (the one that helps me pass out w/in a half hour of going to bed and makes my mind stop going going going going….you get the idea). So I’m laying in bed and I’m freezing (hello just played soccer in like 40 degree weather and it was COLD). I’m laying there cuddled up next to Kerry, trying to steal her heat and eventually covering my head with blankets because I’m so cold. I hadn’t actually fallen asleep when I heart a loud noise downstairs. I looked up over the covers, but didn’t see anything, settled back into bed. Well then I hear footsteps on the stairs and I swear someone is in our room. My heart is beating so hard I feel like it will wake Kerry up, I grip her tighter not wanting her to wake up. Hoping that whoever is in there will leave if we don’t wake up. Then I hear steps in our room over to my dresser, and I hear (I swear to god) my jewelry box opening and someone rifling around in it. I am frozen with fear, I cannot move, I continue to listen to this noise, praying they will take whatever they want and just leave us. I wait for what must be at least 10 minutes and finally it sounds like the person is gone. I move around a bit on the bed, trying to see if they will do something if they are still there, trying to figure out if I could still hear them (and when they were in the room it felt like I could hear them breathing). When I finally peek, no one is there. I get up quickly, run to our door (which has no lock) and slam it shut and turn on the lights immediately waking Kerry up. I tell her someone is in the house that something is going on, and I’m crying and hyperventilating. My hands bracing the door, she comes to me and is holding onto me, trying to peel my hands back from the door but I can’t let go. Finally she convinces me to take the phone in the bathroom and lock myself in there while she goes to look (yes I realize its ridiculous that the 5’4” girl has to go check the house while the stronger 5’11” chick hides in the bathroom, but leave me alone). So she comes back upstairs and tells me nothing is out of place and its okay. It then takes her 15 minutes to get me calmed back down enough to go to sleep. That’s right folks, I think last night was my first full blown panic attack. PANIC ATTACK. Seriously it was very real, and even thinking about it now makes me want to hyperventilate a little bit. What was it, maybe a ghost come to visit me in the night to make its presence known. Maybe something was cluing into my thoughts about hoping for a visitor, who knows. Either way, yeah it was freaky. So unrelated, but from my drive home last night, the lyrics: “You used to captivate me, By your resonating light, Now I'm bound by the life you left behind, Your face it haunts, My once pleasant dreams, Your voice it chased away, All the sanity in me” xoxo

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Not Working

i am happy to tell everyone, i am not working today, i love it. awww if i was just independently wealthy it would be the best thing ever. wow, its only 10:30 this morning and i have already got a lot of stuff completed. i took my math placement test and placed out of what i needed to place out of. so that is great. i went over and gave my results to my nursing advisor and she was excited for me. i meet with her again on december 1st, and then i register on december 2nd. i am so excited. i then decided to go in to evaluations to make sure that i they had received my official transcripts, which they did, so now i filled out an official request to have those evaluated. then i checked in with financial aid and apparently they sent me a letter in october (never got it) and my due date was by november 4th, so yeah that didn't happen. but i filled out the form i needed and can still get my loan, it will just come in after the quarter starts. guess its a good thing i got that private loan in place. so i also had a call back from starbucks and liz wants me to come in on saturday for a 2nd interview. i was worried about this a lot, but talked to tiffany and she thinks that liz likely wants me to come in ask me one or two more questions and then have me fill out paperwork. lets all cross our fingers that that is what it really is, because i'd like to have part time job situation taken care of. moving onward and upward, a new section of my life about to begin. i am really happy that i get the opportunity at 30 to change careers and do something new. oh, i keep having anxiety dreams about missing classes and tests, but it is okay, i know that means it is just really important to me. so, dentist appointment today too, yeah woohoo. not...then likely dinner before heading to soccer. yeah soccer game, oh and yesterday was sarah's birthday so that means drinks for me jessa and sarah. that's even better. no lyrics today, haven't listened to music yet today. i know you are all really bummed. xoxo

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Today is Eight

The magic number today is 8! No, I have 9 days left at BR, but the magic number today is still 8, why you may ask? Well that’s how many lbs I have lost since my last fill. I am so happy about that, let me tell you. 8 down, xx to go. (Yeah like I’m going to post that on here). Ha ha. So yesterday, busy and exciting day. I had my interview with Starbucks in the morning. I think it went really well, so fingers crossed that I get hired everyone. I really liked the manager and she seems like she would be cool to work for. She said she needs someone at nights and how do I feel about that….hello, insomniac here, late nights work just fine for me! Better than early AM’s anyway. So she said she’d let me know in the next couple days. It was my 2 year anniversary yesterday also. It was a good day, although we are not celebrating until Saturday. Kerry had a WALK yesterday (yes all caps means important) and we had a “thanksgiving” dinner at my sisters house, so it wasn’t really a romantical day per se. I did surprise her at work though with a dozen red roses, which were completely unexpected. She liked them and said they smelled great. So we did our dinner at my sister’s house, had Tiff and the kids there with us too and it was good. It was not formal by any means, but we had ham, mashed potatoes, and tiffany made a salad. It was tasty (well what little of it I could get down anyway). Oh and I made pecan pie, and my mom also brought a pumpkin turtle pie which was tasty as well. After that, I got to spend some time holding Peep and trying to keep her calm and relaxed, but I also got to feed her a bottle and changed a poopy diaper. YEAH ME! Next on deck, today is my going away lunch (yes early I know, don’t ask). I’ve also got my desk mostly cleaned up and cleaned out. It’s kind of sad, but not as sad as you would expect. I guess that means it really is a good time for me to move on. School debt here I come. But hey, I will be a sexy fricking nurse in no time, despite everyone’s qualms about my squeamish stomach. I will prevail! Lyrics today: “I sat on the mountainside with peace of mind, I lay by the ocean making love to her with visions clear, Walked for days with no one near, And I return as chained and bound to you” xoxo

Monday, November 10, 2008

I get tired of making up titles.

My tummy hurts. I blame Peep. I visited her yesterday, she was an inconsolable baby, we believe because she had an upset stomach for most of the day. So, not really her fault, but I’m going to say I “caught” her upset tummy from her and its now affecting me. And not in a good way. Go figure. Although, I am very awake today, which is awesome. I guess that’s what the 3G charger in my morning jamba juice will do for me. YEAH JJ, my favorite. So, not counting today, I have 11 more days left of work. I am doing drone work now and am completely okay with that. It’s about what I have the capacity for from here at this point anyway, so although its incredibly boring, and I’m getting paid a lot of money to do data entry, I am really not going to complain. I had my nephew this weekend. He’s in the midst of potty training, and it is going pretty well I must say (kudos to Tiffany). We took him to see Madagascar, along with my 12 year old niece Trina, and we had a good time. Niko even sat through the movie pretty well, which lets face it, is impressive for a 3 year old. Other than that, my weekend wasn’t very exciting. And hey, that is not necessarily a bad thing, so I’m not complaining. Busy week this week. I think Michelle might come down tonight and I’m making dinner, everyone is invited, it’s meatloaf and mashed potatoes and likely will be a late dinner, so that might change your mind about coming. Ha ha. I’m also going to make oatmeal cookies, yummy (although my tummy doesn’t agree right now). Tomorrow night, it’s “thanksgiving” dinner at my sisters. Wednesday I found out is one of my soccer girls birthdays so I’m trying to see about taking her to dinner. Thursday and Friday it’s soccer. Saturday it’s Kerry’s day off and we’re celebrating our 2 year wedding anniversary (which is actually tomorrow, veterans day), so it will be a fun weekend I am sure! Lyrics today: “Thinking of those memories, How your touch was so soft, Your eyes, they were so green, I would have never known how much, You'd come to mean everything to me” Hugs and kisses to all.

Friday, November 07, 2008

TGIF, for f*@ks sake.

Let’s face it everyone, being sick sucks. Being me and being sick, well that is just about 10x worse. Imagine yourself having to put up with me, but even more moody, even more whiney, yeah it’s not a pretty sight. God bless all of you saints who love me and deal with me on a regular basis. God bless the cold medicine industry, even if the medicine I am taking today does make me somewhat queasy, at least my nose isn’t running, right? It’s Friday, yeah, and that means I only have 12 more days left of work. I think that is pretty awesome. Although no more sick or vacation time left (aside from the 13th which I had already taken off). I am not too worried about this as I wasn’t expecting a big payout anyway. But I did happen to be sick in the middle of our software testing project so I was pulled off of that as the lead, awesome. Which means I get to do busy work and data entry for the next 12 days. As mind numbing as that may be, I am totally fine with that. Woohoo. So, I officially have my interview with Starbucks on Tuesday morning. Fingers crossed everyone that I can get through that just fine and they want to hire me. I think Kerry is getting pretty desperate and might sell my body on the streets to make sure I can pay for college, so if you know any takers….just kidding! Oh yeah, and I am signed up for the referee clinic on 12/19-12/21 which means I will have my referee credentials and can supplement when I need extra money by refereeing some games. This is likely how I will pay for my own playing in soccer too. Ha ha. So weekend plans anyone? I have Devan’s soccer game tomorrow, beyond that it’s all a fuzzy outline right now. I’m trying to convince Tiff to go with me and lets take the kids to see a movie, so we’ll see if that happens. Oh, I want to go visit Peep too, but am waiting until I’m done being sick. Oh yeah, more props to Michelle for actually commenting on my blog, way to go again michelle. Today’s song: “Oh, why you look so sad? Tears are in your eyes, Come on and come to me now, Dont be ashamed to cry, Let me see you through, cause I've seen the dark side too, When the night falls on you, You dont know what to do, Nothing you confess, Could make me love you less, I’ll stand by you”

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

It's a Wednesday, bah!

okay so i am home sick today, but i actually get to post in the blogger box which means we are back to no punctuation marks and horrible grammar. yeah me! okay well some punctuation marks i guess. whatever, just dont critique this post, alright. so i am not dying sick, lest anyone be alarmed. i woke up today with my normal case of first of the winter season sinus/cold issues. not the first one ive ever had and i am most definitely sure it will not be my last. oh well, whats a girl to do right? i know, go fill out an application at starbucks so she can get a part time job. do laundry. clean the house. play wii. i guess as a sick person i can keep myself pretty busy. unlike at work. work is deathly slow. like as in, i want to shove a pencil through my eyeball just to increase the excitement of the day. my work has mostly all been transitioned off now, so i have been trying to keep myself busy with busy work (haha what an oxymoron or something) and this software testing, which really i am not the best person for. it's for the program replacing our background checks repository and as some of you know, i havent been doing actual check work in sometime, so i feel somewhat (okay a lot) disassociated from this program altogether. but hey i am a technical geek and tracking bugs i am good at, so thats what i will do. when i go back tomorrow there are only what 13 or 12 more days of work. i think i can i think i can....chugga chugga choo choo. sorry random moment. wow my brain must be otherwise occupied as i am literally trying to grasp at things to write. i am wearing brown pants and a pink shirt, dont you wish your girlfriend was hot like me. okay lyrics: "I'm under your spell, How else could it be, Anyone would notice me? It's magic, I can tell, How you've set me free, Brought me out so easily " Oh and bonus points to michelle for telling me the song that yesterdays lyrics went to. go chelle!

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Heeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrreeee's ME!

My 101st post, I can hardly believe it. I don’t think when I started this blog that I imagined I would keep writing in it for so long. Although I’ve come to discover that it is more fun to type in a blog and have all of you lovelies out there read it than it is to write in a diary and just keep it to myself. Of course maybe I have a secret blog that you don’t know about where I keep the really juicy stuff! Ha ha. Yeah right, like I don’t share the juicy good bits, even when you don’t want to hear them. 15 more days left at work. I got here a bit late today, given that I had missed the train, my bad. I’m working on software testing as well as biographies (data entry). I like mind numbing work at this point that I don’t really have to think about. So election day today. Yeah! Also one week until my 2 year wedding anniversary. It’s the cotton anniversary, did you know? I got cotton roses delivered at work on Friday, they are very cute. I took them home though since I’m not keeping anything personal here at work unless I need to use it on a daily basis. Aww music. It’s hard to not listen to it since it’s pretty much the pulse that beats within my heart. But at the same time, sometimes I just want to throw my ipod/radio/etc right out the window until it crashes into a thousand jagged little pieces. And on that note, your lyrics for today, brought to you from my ipod (although I’ll never tell which soundtrack its from). “I touch the fire and it freezes me, I look into it and its black. Why can’t I feel, my skin should crack and peel, I want the fire back….This isn’t real, but I just want to feel, where do we go from here?”

Monday, November 03, 2008

23 days and counting...

I can’t believe that I only have 23 days left until my last day at work. It seems like I have been here forever, and really in my world I really have. I mean this is the longest I’ve been at any job, which should be a testament to the fact that I have really enjoyed working here. Up until the last 9 months or so of course, but that is another story. Great weekend this weekend, Friday night I spent with Peep and my sister, handing out candy to trick or treaters (so cute). Oh I should clarify, I didn’t hand out the candy, I sat on the couch, holding peep, letting myself be soothed by the wonderfulness that is a sleeping cute baby. I of course also got to feed her, and didn’t have to change a poopy diaper, so hey, that is even better. Saturday I finally got to sleep in before heading to Devan’s soccer game, hanging with the Hicks briefly, then going to my own soccer game where we kicked ass! Although seriously, was driving around in Will’s car (long story there too) and he has no heater, and good god I didn’t realize how cold it gets without a heater. Although it was nice to be sitting up higher for a bit, even if I did have to think about slowing down before taking corners due to a higher rollover risk. Ha ha. Came home, had the Hahn’s over for dinner (where I made an awesome meatloaf and mashed potatos) and then of course headed to bed late to sleep in the next morning too. I didn’t feel so great on Sunday (gee maybe the Patron had something to do with it), so hung around the house until I went to my soccer game at 7pm, where once again my team kicked ass! Came home, cleaned dishes, packed the gym bag, took a bath, then off to bed again. So I could come to work again Monday morning…did I mention I only have 23 days left until I’m done here (or technically speaking that’s 17 working days, of which I will probably take 2 off for school/dentist stuff. Downloaded some new music too, Pink’s new album (Funhouse) which is great and Lady GaGa (don’t ask) which is pretty upbeat, so I like both of those. I think these next few weeks are going to fly by (but not at work, cause it’s slow here and seriously I’m stretching myself just to find work). Lyrics: “No I don’t believe you, when you say don’t come around here no more. I won’t remind you, you said we wouldn’t be apart, No I don’t believe you, when you say you don’t need me anymore, so don’t pretend to not love me at all” xoxo OH YEAH, THIS IS MY 100TH BLOG POST, GO ME, GO ME!