Saturday, May 31, 2008

Boys, Hockey and the whole damn thing

happy saturday everyone. currently i am blogging on location from the boys' house. who are the boys you ask? my boys, carlos and chad. for those in the know, i've known carlos for 14 years, and chad for 7 years. carlos and chad are a couple, and for a long time we were all roommates. best roommates i've ever had, after my girl keri of course. but hey living with gay guys had its perks, our house was always well decorated and clean, and usually through no help from myself. ha ha so at the boys house we are watching game 4 of the stanley cup finals. chad is a freak for the detroit redwings, so lets hope they win! i took some pain meds before we came over. not because of my incisions amazingly enough, but because of my back. seriously who throws out their back while trying to shave their legs. well i do it looks like. probably because i'm not really supposed to bend over because of my incisions, so my body was all contorted in a weird position. oh well, now i know what not to do. does that mean i follow the rules..not all the time. ha ha. serious time for a moment-my thoughts and prayers are with my friend john and his family at the moment. difficult time for his family and anything i can do i will. okay back to being myself now, not serious, never! we all know i like to just be light and friendly and never serious. okay i'm not making sense to myself anymore. ta ta for now. haha. xoxox

Friday, May 30, 2008

Thursday...er I mean Friday!

okay so here we go again. although i don't believe i'm under the influence right now, i think the pain meds wore off awhile ago. it's 4:25 in the morning. I went to bed around 12, however was up again at 3:30 not able to sleep. this is the 2nd night in a row, not sure what the deal is but i hope this doesn't become a habit. seriously that would be annoying. i watched daytime talk shows this morning. ugh, how can kerry like them so much, they somewhat drive me crazy. of course i love the shit that is about gossip and stuff like that, big surprise as i'm a huge perezhilton.com fan, but really sometimes the interviews with people are obnoxious and annoying. okay like today, the big buzz is the sex and the city movie. now i know a few people who were die hard fans, i never actually got into the show that much, i think because i have other shows that were more important and were on at the same time. but i know for fans, this movie is a huge deal and a longtime in the making. so i understand the excitement. but the press leading up to it, hello, overwhelming and annoying. shopping at steve & barry tonight and it was sex and the city all the time!! not surprising given that sarah jessica parker's clothing line, bitten, is sold there...but still. okay this all probably seems somewhat hypocritical from the girl who was all excited about all of the following: harry potter movie releases, star wars, and of course the new indiana jones movie. yeah it's true, i'm a nerd like that. seriously is it any wonder i am a lesbian. i can't get worked up about a movie with women, shopping, shoes, and more shopping. but damn give me a hero with a wand, a light saber, or a whip and apparently i'm all into it. yes it's true, but my friends probably knew this long ago and love me anyway. thanks guys!! have developed a new white trash habit for sure, kerry and i went gambling again tonight. woohoo. the exciting part was this, couldn't seem to lose, for both of us. granted we only won about 150 bucks total, but hey, that's better than a sharp stick in the eye. i was completely laughing at this little old asian lady sitting next to me at one machine though. she kept slapping the screen repeatedly, and quite hard. i was waiting for her to go postal and just punch her hand through the machine i swear. i think it was something she was doing for luck though or what not. on a bonus game on the slot machine, she did it in a motion that indicated she thought she was controlling it somehow. she must not have heard that the house always wins... did some shopping today (yes ignore the earlier paragraph about sex and the city and shopping). kerry and i managed to do some damage at the super mall. i'm not trying to buy a lot of clothes right now though because my size will change drastically (I hope, fingers crossed) over the next several weeks. no point in wasting too much money on stuff that won't fit soon anyway. okay it's 4:34am now. i think i might be tired enough to fall back asleep finally. happy friday peeps!

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Wednesday

day after birthday plans: get up, go to ocean shores, come home. day after birthday realty: get up at 4:30 am with chest pains because i can't get a deep enough breath, slight panic attack, take pain meds and go back to sleep. wake up too late in the morning, hang around the house for awhile, then go to ocean shores, stop a few times on the way when we end up taking the wrong roads, get to ocean shores. beach is cold, not quite summer yet here, go to the quinault casino and resort (note to self a resort does not look like a days inn). casino is lame but gamble for a bit anyway. head home, stop at cabelas on the way home (interesting place...if you like a lot of taxidermy and hunting gear). instead of going home, end up in auburn at the muckleshoot and gamble. come home around 11ish after apparently a sneeze decided to RIP through my body and upset a few of my incisions. seriously people, a sneeze here. who knew a little innocuous sneeze could cause so much damage. so came home, had more pain meds, now am blogging high again (kendra should like that, she said she liked it the first time). so i realize i've written in all lower case but now i'm too lazy to go back and change it, which seriously is saying a lot people as we all know how i feel about grammar and correct spellings and all that. kerry and i even got players cards at the muckleshoot. i think that means we're on our way to being white trash gamblers or something. hopefully that will mean that i "learn the system" and "beat the house" and what not, but i doubt it. kerry is upstairs doing laundry. she's nice that way, she does great laundry. i hate laundry, have i mentioned that? i like vaccuming, vaccuming is more fun. although right now, i'm not supposed to lift more than 5 lbs, so i'm not allowed to even lift the vaccuum, let alone my cats. have i told you this too, my cats weigh about 10lbs a piece, yup, can't lift them. so i tend to just kind of brush them off the table/counter/out of my way at the moment. oh, my cats play fetch too. is that weird, does anyone else's cats play fetch? i think they know its that i want a dog so they are trying to make me happy. kerry says we just have super interactive cats. what are non-interactive cats like? oh wait, cats are like....okay i have no idea what i was going to write there, but it started off really good in my head. i kind of like this free form blogging, i might do this more often. i mean i'm a random thought type girl, my blog should reflect the same. Goodnight bitches!

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

My 30th Birthday

Well, today is my 30th birthday. I can't believe I'm actually 30 now. I know it doesn't seem like a huge deal to most people, or maybe it does, but to me it seems like an ending instead of a beginning. I'm supposed to grow up now, right? I should be doing responsible things, yet all I want to do is run away screaming and go back to just being 18 again. Maybe it's my own mid life crisis, who knows. I spent the day with Kerry, Tiffany, and the kids at Point Defiance Zoo. I got a new ipod touch from Kerry for my birthday, it is sweet, I can't wait to learn how to use all the features on it. I also spent the evening in Seattle by visiting Crystal at her softball game. I drove with her to the game, watched the game, and then drove home with Kerry. Kerry bought me mashed potatoes for my special birthday treat. Woohoo! xoxo

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Day Four

Fourth day after surgery. The drugs are not as potent as they were in the beginning, but that's okay because my pain isn't as strong as it was in the beginning. Today found me doing quite a bit. Tiffany and Niko came over for awhile, that was fun. I had Tiffany lift Niko into my arms so that I can carry him around, he was so cute and lovey dovey today. Kerry said it must be because he knows I am not feeling very well. Now I am sitting at home with Kendra, Trina, Ray, Michelle, Kerry and my mom. It's a full house at our place, that's for sure. oh and the two cats, plus Michelle's dog Lucy. We're watching some weird show on TV with movies on tap for later. Already went for chinese food and a walk around the lake, so now we're at home chilling. More later... xoxo

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Recovering!

Hi everyone! I am home recovering. My surgery was on Thursday, May 22nd. I was very scared/nervous going into it. I was partly worried that my liver had not shrunk enough and the doctor would not do my surgery. I mean I did cheat on my liquid diet 4 times, so how would I know if my liver had shrunk enough. Guess I should have measured it ahead of time. Ha ha. I am actually feeling pretty good. My pain isn't too much, or at least not as much as I thought it would be. I just took my pain meds about 20 minutes ago and they are kicking in as we speak. So yeah I'm blogging while I'm slightly high on my painkillers. Ha ha. Hey, at least I'm having a good time with it. The liquid diet post operative is going better than pre operative. I'm not super hungry anyway, so sugar free popsicles are my best friend! (Okay not really, I have actual best friends, with phones and stuff, they talk too!!) Okay so apparently I should quit blogging for awhile. The lightheadedness is weird!! Ha ha xoxox

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Two More

Less than two more days left until my surgery. I know, it's all I can talk about these days, and I apologize. I wish there was more exciting stuff going on in my life right now, but pretty much this is it!! Mom emailed me about my will today. That is a depressing thought, although I understand why it is necessary. Just in the unlikely event that (God Forbid), something should happen to me while I'm under, I need to make sure that Kerry is covered both legally and financially. Also, I apparently have to designate personal items to people if I choose to do so. Oh, and Tiffany is the second executor should anyone have any questions about that. Now my blog is totally legal and stuff!! (yeah right) Tonight we have another Storm game. That is fun times. Although seriously if we have people behind us like we did on Saturday I might go postal. Those people ATE, from the beginning to the end of the game-popcorn, hot dogs, pizza, ice cream, french fries...DROOL, french fries. I love french fries. Who's with me on that one?!? Okay anyway, I don't want to get hungry again. xoxo OH, and people, hello, comment on the blog. That's why it has a comments section....

Monday, May 19, 2008

T-3 Days

3 days left until surgery. I broke down yesterday and ate food when I shouldn't have. Then I threw up. I guess that was a sign, not to eat, so yeah, I'm not even hungry today for my liquids. SWEET! Ha ha. It's Monday, normally a day I am not very thrilled with, but for some reason, today I don't mind. Maybe it's because only 3 more days until I'm out from work for TWO FREAKING WEEKS. I don't care if I have to have surgery to get it. I'm not working! xoxo

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Saturday

It's Saturday, and it's a beautiful day outside. I am less than 5 days away from surgery. I can't believe that it's come upon me so fast. It's been a long time in the making, but soon it will be over. Kerry has taken the evening before off to be with me, which is super nice, however I am concerned that I will be a raging psycho so we will see how that goes. No more cheating on the liquid diet though, that is for sure. I have to re-read all of my pre surgical paperwork so that I can make sure I am prepared before I go into surgery. Kerry asked me if I would like to get a new set of pyjamas for my stay in the hospital. I thought that was cute, but not really sure I need new pyjamas. Afterall, all those people in the hospital will have already seen me butt ass naked, who caress what pyjamas I am wearing. Ha ha. xoxo

Friday, May 16, 2008

Friday

It's Friday. I am now officially down to less than a week until my surgery. I'm nervous, excited, and scared all at the same time. I know it's all I can seem to talk about lately, probably driving all of my poor friends crazy. I hope this all works out for the best in the end. It's a lot to put yourself through if it doesn't work, but I've done other crazy stuff before, how can this be any different! Ha ha. Soccer tonight, soccer Sunday and then I'm done for 8-10 weeks, doesn't that suck?!? I'm sure it doesn't to most other people, just me. I've been told to expect that I can only do walking for the first several weeks after surgery. Walking?!? Are you kidding me, like how is that supposed to get my frustration/aggression out. Ha ha. Maybe I can have Kerry get me a punching bag finally. Woohoo. It's a beautiful day out today. Hope everyone enjoys the weather. xoxo

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Wednesday

Eight days and counting people. With the exception of today really it's only 7 days, but still. Thursday of next week at this time, I will be on my way into Federal Way with my mom and Kerry to go under the knife. Duh duh duh! Sounds scary, and I'm sure the night before and the day of, it will be, but right now I can make jokes about it so I'm going to. This liquid diet crap is totally not for me. I am starving by the time evening rolls around. Trying very hard to stick with it though as my doctor has said if he opens me up and my liver has not shrunk he won't do the surgery. LAME!! So it's Wednesday my work week is half over (Yeah) and still a lot to do. Not much time for blogging but wanted to say hi to everyone! xoxo UPDATE- I changed my background. I found this one online, it's called Peaceful Rush, I'm hoping it makes me peaceful! Zen even. Or some shit like that. I think I'm going to go ride my bike tonight, that sounds like fun!

Friday, May 09, 2008

Day One..

Well, today is day one of the liquid diet. So far, its okay but I'll keep everyone posted on whether or not I will want to gnaw their arms off later. Ha ha. It's Friday, woohoo. I have Monday off for more pre-op stuff, even better! It's like a 3 day weekend, well mostly anyway. Let's see, exciting plans for the weekend. Margaret Cho tomorrow night, that should be hilarious. Soccer game tonight and Sunday (that should be exhausting), and I think that's about it. Our lawn is looking like a jungle, so will be trying to help get that mowed, and I'll probably trim the bushes around the front and back too (well wait, what's the weather supposed to be like again anyway). Okay guess I should check on that first. Busy work day ahead, so holler at you later! xoxo